faded memories

2005-01-04T20:25:00.000+08:00

&moved;

i've moved!

2005-01-03T20:07:00.000+08:00

&iniziatone;

haha. betcha dunno what it means. lol. it was our orientation camp name. italian for pioneers. like, italian! whee. haha.

yeah. today was the first day of sch. workshops all the way. quite fun lar. marcus was telling everyone about mr chia, the discipline person of vs, who we all find really retarded and comical, so everyone laughed. haha. yeaps. workshops were rather...familiar. alot like gep stuff. was smsing char halfway through the thing. not fair! her sch ends like, earlier than mine! -whines- i still want to complain about not being able to meet her and yeow and dno who else to pass her the pictures. gah. -whines again-

oh. sch bookshop is super slow when it comes to uniforms. took an hour to get mine, when there were only 2 people ahead of me. urgh. submitted the order for the tablet pc already. haha. yayness. =)

supposedly going to some 'cool places' tmr. haha. eugene wants me to bring my mac and digicam tmr - to take pics and view them. okay then. whee.

lalala. class is getting on fine. yeaps. jheng's being his usual show off self again, i swear it's always the girls. oh well, at least eugene and i get laughs out of suaning him. xP

2005-01-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

&gah;

-whine- no. my weird sch hours.

means i can't meet up with charmaine and whoever this week! argh argh argh. i end earliest at 5pm. which is tmr. friday's diff, cos we end around 12-2, can't remember.

i'm going to whine. hmph. and stop saying names alr. it gets me high. lol. whee.

2005-01-02T01:09:00.000+08:00

&i remember;

just so i feel better... i kicked kevin shih pak ming's butt at pool last night at terry's place. whee. haha. i beat dan, germ, kelly. lost to terry. played only once tho. haha. shall aim to beat terry next. lalalala.

oh. i need new year resolutions. hmm.

let's see.

1) top my class in tj. well at least top 3 overall. i'm a gepper. haha.
2) commit regularly to a pdp (personal development prog, the equivalent of a cca.)
3) place God first, and know He is always there, instead of trying to do things my way most of the time. sorta like, be more conscious of Him.
4) have a more regular tawg. haha. doing well so far. there was a period of time last year i didn't do for 3 mths. =/
5) try to get along better with certain people. i shall not name them. forgive and forget, hopefully. must be more tolerant.
6) run 2.4km in >9min consistantly next year.
7) get top 10 position in running among the ip batch of tj people. haha.
8) join track/xcountry next year. haha. bball is out! blah.

i need more! chloe has goodness knows how many. i must beat her! haha.

2005-01-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

&twenty-oh-five;

lalalala. yeah. it's a new year.

which means i'm officially now in tj. eeps. 8-5! can't stand it! blahhh. not fair! -whines-

haha. right. first service of the year was cool. YAS and youth combined music team. coolness. hahaha. yeah. p darick got a new hairstyle. haha. quite amusing. =) went to macs later. urgh. played bridge, and got like, err, whatever lar. elaine i'm gonna kill you! how can you keep doing that stupid thing and make me smile lar!!! -dies-

2004-12-31T03:58:00.000+08:00

&blah;

i can't think of a better title. so who cares.

it's the last day of 2004. the last morning. and what am i doing?

i'm on neopets with edlyn discussing how much it has changed.

i know someone will kill me if she sees the time of this post. eeps.

2004-12-30T17:27:00.000+08:00

&tj;

okay. came back from orientation. was better than expected, save being in the same class as jonathan heng for the next 4 years in addition to the past 5. i'm pissed beyond belief lar. at least i have people who don't like him either, which is good. enough said. not gonna elaborate on the orientation.

i wanna join track next year. haha. bball looks tough to get in. stupid anglican bballers came here lar. tall freaks.

my class can't do sports. nevermind.

anws, played badminton and soccer today, after 4 hours of slp during the next. jonathan had to be an idiot and stay awake lar. everyone couldn't sleep cos he was talking to himself. -swears like hell- grr. i can't stand him. yeah.

heck. tmr's watchnight. i'm not even enthu. who cares.

2004-12-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

&orientation;

oh man.

orientation camp tmr. well, i can come home tmr. only have to stay over on wed. but thurs there's soccer.

i'm going to pontang thurs. ask mum to get them to let me off on wed night. i hope. lol.

gah. chloe may not be going. lol. supposed to have a face off in soccer. see if she can catch me. lol. haha. why so? cos i can't score for nuts in soccer, i just run, and pass, or dribble into the goal. haha. but she's got cca orientation. oh wells.

sch's starting - some earlier than others, which foreshadows the gloom and doom of singaporean students. oh let me fall sick tmr. please please please. i'm a slacker. haha.

lalalala. wish me luck, and hope i don't die tmr. i hate camps, esp the food, esp veg. eww. ble.

i'm not sleeping! i don't want tmr to come! -whines-

2004-12-26T01:34:00.000+08:00

&merry christmas;

i know it's overdue. haha. cos i stayed over at terry's house, wait, it's a freaking mansion lar! freaking big place. lol. he has his own pool table. haha.

err, well, what did i do? mainly played bridge and pool. haha. i passed the xbox. eeps, not for me. saw stuff i think shouldn't have been done, i think. i don't know. gah.

kevin shih has yet to play me in pool. haha. whenever he's ready i guess. kevin was like, "isaac, i heard you're pro." i'm like, what the...i got thrashed by what's-his-name who started playing pool since he was nine. like, blah. i beat eugene, yeow, desmond neo, and marcus (twice). so err, duh it was lucky lar. haha. do i look pro to you? of course...not. mhmm.

went for the 8:30am service, gave out presents. went to watch the stupid kungfu show with section members. urgh. honestly, it was funny, and rather cool, but it didnt click with me. it was stupidly funny, but not my type i guess. yeah.

went home, then went to jaschoe's place. mhmm. shepherd's pie like, totally owns man. haha. joshie agrees. >.< haha. twin's gonna laugh, i know. lol. whatever. haha.

i reached home around 12 plus. yeah. got...held up. haha. lol. whatever. mhmm. lalalala. okay. i'm tired. only got 2 hrs of sleep at terry's place. i need sleep! and someone wants me to sleep. so i'll sleep after this. night all.

oh man. orientation camp tues-thurs next week. i'll miss...my msn!!! -whine- you thought it was you? nah. it's my msn programme! you people are but a vicarious experience. lol. i'm mean, nevermind! haha. whee night.

2004-12-23T01:30:00.000+08:00

&still;

just did tawg.

cleared things up alr.

sigh. yeahh. i'm terrible at times. really sorry. just had a really bad day.

ah. still. i love this song. it does wonders, to quote jon ho.

Still

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

Chorus
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

(chorus)

and thanks twin. yeaps. Jesus You are my best friend, and You will always be, nothing will ever change that!

2004-12-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

&scandals;

now it's danyeow!!!

chris [les choristes.] says: (11:34:37 PM)
let's thinkkkk.

chris [les choristes.] says: (11:34:44 PM)
i think rach is the most suitable!

«Ðåñ» boooo says: (11:34:50 PM)
and why is that so?

chris [les choristes.] says: (11:35:00 PM)
cos...i can imagine you two!

chris [les choristes.] says: (11:35:02 PM)
not mel!

chris [les choristes.] says: (11:35:03 PM)
haha.

«Ðåñ» boooo says: (11:35:06 PM)
loll

«Ðåñ» boooo says: (11:35:08 PM)
mel will abuse me

«Ðåñ» boooo says: (11:35:09 PM)
=X

chris [les choristes.] says: (11:35:10 PM)
rachel or mel.

chris [les choristes.] says: (11:35:12 PM)
AHAHAHA

chris [les choristes.] says: (11:35:18 PM)
im quoting you in my blog!

«Ðåñ» boooo says: (11:35:26 PM)
lol nooooooo

«Ðåñ» boooo says: (11:35:29 PM)
hahaha

mhmm. danyeow thinks mel will abuse him ehs? xP

2004-12-19T03:00:00.000+08:00

&cell poster;

oh yeah. we won cell poster 2nd thing. haha. as in, we got 2nd.

i'm tired. so i don't talk sense. going to sleep after this.

haha. $70 of haagen daaz ice cream. think of how much that is! yum yum yum! whee.

let's bless people! haha. maybe i'll get a tub and bring it to terry's place on fri or sth.

night all.

oh yeah. chloe's coming back in about, 3.5 hours time. haha. welcome back. hope beijing was nice.

haha. oh yeah. i asked charmaine to go to terry's place on fri. she wants to go, cos coughcoughcough. it's a big house. good reason for going eh? weird girl. haha. and i only asked her cos she was the only sec2 online! yes. i am not scandalous!

2004-12-19T02:24:00.000+08:00

&cell;

haha. okay. hmm. cell today was okay. lalala. fast forward.

warm cells cool christmas. no one wants to take balloons during games, so decide to be nice, and do it. and i end up doing a forfeit. okay fine. lol. whatever. was good i guess. the games were nice, sermon was good. yeahh. God spoke to me about letting go of alot of past disappointments this year. like, He said that through those times, He was moulding my character into a better leader for Him. haha. guess who prayed for me? bro zhichao. really, whenever he prays for me, it really touches me. i don't know why him, but it's really cool. must thank him soon.

went for dinner at serene macs. played bridge. haha. saw tim eu. whoa. long time no see. haha. he's back till the 25th. sigh. he's prob staying in australia for good now i think. oh wells.

went chester's place, played soccer. sent mark and abel back home.

now i'm here. yeah. okay. whatever.

2004-12-17T23:26:00.000+08:00

&scandal ii;

charmaine!!! argh.

chris [les choristes.] says:
back?
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
WHAT
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
U WENT BTP?
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
THATS LIKE WALKING DISTANCE FRM MY HSE
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
like 15mins walking dist
chris [les choristes.] says:
you wanna meet me is it?
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
hahaha
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
lOL
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
..rightt
chris [les choristes.] says:
admit it lar.
chris [les choristes.] says:
>.<
chris [les choristes.] says:
you're scandalous.
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
...errhhh
chris [les choristes.] says:
and im err, the most attractive yet not gdlooking guy ard!
chris [les choristes.] says:
-dies-
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
u wan me put that in my nick?
chris [les choristes.] says:
okay!
chris [les choristes.] says:
lol!!!
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
sure?
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
haha
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
i will!
chris [les choristes.] says:
mhmm.
chris [les choristes.] says:
do it!
chris [les choristes.] says:
mel's not ard.
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
raine is online
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
lol
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
jolyn is online
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
lol
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
dre is online
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
lol
chris [les choristes.] says:
((:
chris [les choristes.] says:
i dare you to!
see who says i dun dare put --> chris claims that he is the "most attractive yet not gdlooking guy ard" >.< says:
YES
see who says i dun dare put --> chris claims that he is the "most attractive yet not gdlooking guy ard" >.< says:
there
chris [les choristes.] says:
WHAT?!?!?!
see who says i dun dare put --> chris claims that he is the "most attractive yet not gdlooking guy ard" >.< says:
awww
see who says i dun dare put --> chris claims that he is the "most attractive yet not gdlooking guy ard" >.< says:
too bad u wanted it
see who says i dun dare put --> chris claims that he is the "most attractive yet not gdlooking guy ard" >.< says:
hahaha
chris [les choristes.] says:
...
chris [les choristes.] says:
>.<
see who says i dun dare put --> chris claims that he is the "most attractive yet not gdlooking guy ard" >.< says:
okae i tink we are really gonna die

charmaine is err, really humouring me. >.< haha.

2004-12-17T23:16:00.000+08:00

&scandal;

charmaine is scandalous. i shall tell you why! haha.

_[charmaine]* ...running after you says:
i tink i just stepped on a sheep
_[charmaine]* ...running after you says:
-hahahahhaha-
chris [les choristes.] says:
-whines-
chris [les choristes.] says:
i dont like you! you bully me!
chris [les choristes.] says:
shoo. dont wanna talk to you anymore!
_[charmaine]* i bully isaac? since when? -looks innocent- says:
okae!
_[charmaine]* i bully isaac? since when? -looks innocent- says:
i also dun talk to u
_[charmaine]* i bully isaac? since when? -looks innocent- says:
!!
chris [les choristes.] says:
WHAT?!
chris [les choristes.] says:
WHY IS IT IN YOUR NICK!
chris [les choristes.] says:
OH MAN!
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
dots
chris [les choristes.] says:
SO SCANDALOUS!
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
precisely thats why i changed to chris
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
haha
chris [les choristes.] says:
im chris!! OH MAN
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
but most pple dunno
chris [les choristes.] says:
ANYONE WHO KNOWS THE BOTH OF US WILL THINK...
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
hahaha
chris [les choristes.] says:
OH MAN~
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
they wont!!
chris [les choristes.] says:
CHARMAINE!
chris [les choristes.] says:
...right. okay.
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
hahaha
chris [les choristes.] says:
blahhh.
chris [les choristes.] says:
if mel sees. lol.
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
HAHAHA
chris [les choristes.] says:
ahahaha. imagine if...chloe sees.
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
she wont kill u
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
lol
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
more like if u bully me
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
den she will kill u
chris [les choristes.] says:
hahaha.
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
g2g
chris [les choristes.] says:
chloe will think it's scandalous.
chris [les choristes.] says:
kk.
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
parents back
chris [les choristes.] says:
ciaos.
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
ttyl
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
sms
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
byee
chris [les choristes.] says:
kk. sms me
chris [les choristes.] says:
bye.
_[charmaine]* i bully chris? since when? -looks innocent- says:
-pokes you-
chris [les choristes.] says:
dots.

see? charmaine is therefore scandalous! lol.

2004-12-17T22:33:00.000+08:00

&games;

watched ocean's twelve today. haha. jokes cracked are meant to be understood only if you watch other movies. and err, julia roberts as julia roberts?! haha. right.

rating: 4/5

moving on. went to bukit timah plaza. met dre. yadda yadda. lan. oh, i suck at lan. i got err, my base thing killed after 5 mins on red alert 2. nuff said.

hmm. pooled at marina south with mark. really off. i got thrashed in all 5 games. well, not thrashed, just lost. usually cos he hits the stupid 8 ball in more accurately than i do. i always screw up that ball. bahh.

may ball tmr. or may go shopping with bryan for his christmas presents. he set aside $1k?! oh man. rich guyyyy.

2004-12-16T18:58:00.000+08:00

&feet stuff;

haha. yay. went shopping with mum and bro in the morn at suntec. bought some presents for the relatives.

then took a cab to queensway to get my shoes. haha. $83. nike dunks. more than 30% discount i think, without gst too! mhmm. oh. and i saw twin. rather, she saw me. hahaha.

twin stole my fries at macs okay! =D

thou shall not steal! tskk.

okay. bye. lol.

2004-12-15T14:59:00.000+08:00

&advert;

okay. i'm helping danliu with sth.

www.facts.com.sg

it's the anti-casino petition website thing.

go sign! (:

****

argh. just finished bballing with kieran. ouchies. i'm injury prone i swear! i got hit on the right shoulder, both wrists, and someone stepped on my toe. bah. at least no smashed glasses. haha.

oh. highlight of the day. at around 10 plus. haha. i shot 8/10 3pters in. haha. cousin was like, "what the...what's wrong with you?" (after 6 shots.)

"dunno." and i shoot another in without looking. lol. haha.

but i tire out, duh. like i'm normal. oh man. last two games were horrible. missed every, note every, open shot. so i only scored 1 shot in 2 games, and it was a contested shot over a taller player. haha. i need motivation. haha. might play bball with jon ho tmr. i'd doubt it now, i'm dead tired - body's aching like mad. hope i can go for prayer meet.

fri tentatively there's pool on. haha. mark, chester, joshua sim, and myself. anyone wants to go? it's legal, don't worry! haha.

hmm. should i join the tj bball team? or creative writing thing? two at most lar. i'm taking one to see how. vote at the doodleboard. (:

going for lunch with kieran now. should i change before prayer meet? i'm wearing berms. -.- gahh. i'm lazy. i'll go home and change only if i have time. yeah.

2004-12-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

&movie;

caught national treasure today. was similar to the da vinci code. 'nuff said. it was good i guess. haha. i swear the glove incident with the middle finger was intentional! nevermind.

sam, dan liu and yeow, yongjin, charmaine, mel, elaine and i were there. yeaps. ended up getting 2 rows of 4 seats. yong jin, dan liu, yeow and elaine sat in the front one. so mel and charmaine sat at different ends cos mel still was scared of me or sth. haha. i rock. mhmm. so i sat in between charmaine and samuel lar. why am i mentioning sitting arrangements anyways? haha. okay, here we go.

direct rating: 3.5/5. nothing that good. obviously the idea orginated from a novel, but you can't hunt for treasure with many clues in 2 hours, sorry. but i guess it was pretty alright for your average person.

why on earth is the ship's name that?! stupid name. go burn the ship. hmph. and and and, the bad guy is named ian. haha. mel must have been freaked out i guess. -shrugs-

wandered around centrepoint after that. went times, saw some nice notebooks. oh man. people are scandalous. that's all i'll say. and no, it's not me this time. yeaps.

while walking back, guess who i saw? nicole. haha. i didn't realise at first, i thought it looked like her. i must look like a total retard. she walks past, says "hi isaac." i go "hi." and think, who the heck did i just say hi to? so i msg her, and find out it's her. apparently she just came back from the us today or sth. no jet lag, so she claims. amazing. haha.

i went back, then decided to go for dinner with sam and alex. so off i go to cityhall, and i realise nicole's at j8. so i met her first, had a chat - eka being the topic of conversation - and left for cityhall. i called charmaine and boarded a train. then i freaking realise it's the wrong train and i was headed for amk. oh man. i feel so maluated. ble. got off, changed train, got to cityhall. met sam and alex, had long john silver's for dinner. then went to some dvd shop, trying to find the 4 piece dvd limited edition set of ROTK. sam collects i guess. he got the first 2. sadly, they were out of stock till friday.

oh. i'm playing ball again tmr, 9:30am. so i'm staying at sam's place again. haha. and oh, nicole smsed earlier saying she was tired. haha. i knew it. jet lag does set it.

and yes, -.- is my emoticon. looks like me, no? slit eyes? haha. so err, use me! (that sounds wrong.) but you get what i mean. i'm shamelessly advertising! (:

2004-12-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

&cell poster;

yay. our poster rocks.

yeah yeah, clio did a great job lar. haha.

fabian is scandalous.

i am frustrated.

wanna know why?

it's cos danyeow did his cell poster. no i don't hate him or what, it's that where are the other SPs?! why on earth is danyeow leading cell? if he can, good for him, but he shouldn't be.

what absolute nonsense. God, help. help me to just accept things, and let go on this hatred. help. the temptation to just return to feeling what shan did is just so freaking great. argh. just hold on.

2004-12-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

&interesting;

haha. try this at home.

well, not at home. but anyways, mouth the word 'colourful' to someone of the opposite gender to see interesting results. haha.

thanks to mel for coming up with lame stuff like this. haha.

****

chloe just left for beijing. oh man. she thought i was pissed at her. nevermind. i wasn't lar. it seems whenever either of us leaves, the one who's leaving cannot leave in peace. sth will crop up. when i left it was her and jared. now she's worried about me. gahh. stupid stuff.

platonic relationships are better. just a random comment.

2004-12-11T13:14:00.000+08:00

&back from camp;

camp was fun. yeaps. not only the group members and stuff, and the games, but really, it was just a good break from civilisation, and where we could encounter God.

most people who read this probably went from camp anyways, so i won't update much here.

but personally, i just feel a renewed sense of calling towards my ministry and what God wants me to grow in.

i guess there's always more to what God wants to do. you can't just attain what He wants for the moment, and say "God, that's it." but there's always more. there's always that next level of intimacy, of growing closer to my Father.

haha. yeahh. i must agree with what yvette said, about the dancing with your Father thing. dre and i can relate to that. it's not only girls that dance okay! haha. but it's like, where you're so lost in God's love, and you just wanna be so close to Him. go experience it man. words just can't say enough, when all i feel is love. (:

did i mention i got bugged at camp? -glares at chloe.- charmaine tan! see lar. you had to mention one and two and dunno what else. haha. i had no peace at all. i got bugged at every possible moment. gah. sorry i lied k? just that, well, you really shouldn't know some stuff. yeaps. cos ermm, it's absurd! yeah. haha.

oh oh. and daryl, chester, bertrand and i were mimicking danielle the whole camp. the "eww", "whatever", "nevermind". haha. oh man. it was hilarious. whenever danielle went eww over sth, we went like, 'whatever!' haha. i'm mad.

cough cough. i'm so not a walking bible okay? just because i know the character's names in virtue reality doesn't give you the right to label me that man! hmph. lol.

****
cell's on later. gonna do the poster. mhmm.

i'm hungry. mum's not back with lunch yet.

****
chloe: so you're going to beijing ehs? haha. you better drink more water and rest as much as you can before tonight. wouldn't want you going over there and not enjoying yourself right? haha. yeaps. so like, do take care of yourself. and i'm sorry for lying k. yeah. and i agree with you on that matter, friends are always better. mhmm. and we've been smsing since dunno how long alr. heh. you should just come online, but yeah, your mum would kill you. so happy packing then. hope you get better, and enjoy your trip. take care, and God Bless. you can bug jared when you come back. (:

2004-12-05T23:47:00.000+08:00

¬ice;

i'll be at camp in rompin malaysia from the 6th-10th of dec.

if need be, sms me, cos i'll have my handphone with autoroaming.

i won't be in singapore, so i won't be online or whatnot.

so i'm not updating this till i return.

bye all.

2004-12-05T19:30:00.000+08:00

&perhaps;

to whom it may concern,

i guess you were right. prevention is better than cure. it's always better to stay away from sth, instead of saying you can handle it with your own judgment.

so that pretty much sums up what i have to say.

admittedly, i should have listened to you, and stayed away, but no, i didn't. so now, i guess i can follow in his footsteps then. let it be that way. i share his sentiments, that alot of things in the ministry is screwed up. i agree. wholeheartedly. you may say people aren't perfect. but i'm not asking for perfection, i'm asking for the best you have to offer. if your heart's not in the right place, then get lost. you're only making things worse, and believe me, we could all do without that. there's only one other sp in my section i view capable. it's not because we went through the courses or whatever. it's because we care for the people under us. we care for their lives. we care if they backslide if we don't call them. we call them and inform them about cell irregardless of our personal rifts with them. we do it, because we know we have to, and we love God, thus we love His people. but the others? where are the leaders among leaders?

what happened to the trio of guys in sec2 who where originally commissioned? only one is left. one left church, the other could care if someone backslided cos his life is more important than anything else, yet, he's a leader in youth camp. so tell me that pastors see our hearts to serve, not our skills. and i'll say, you have a heart, just think about where it is.

i'm not going to be accepting, accomodating anymore. i'm going to fuse Godly anger, with human wrath and rage - the whirl of emotions in my mind - and corrupt it. destroy the values in me, and yes, let me become the next person everyone hates. but i'll learn from mistakes, you're not going to get me out, cos i won't make any mistakes. i'll stick by the rules - rules which our ministry set down.

sorry i'm changing, or have already changed. i know you didn't want things to end up this way. it's not your fault, it's the circumstances around me. you said i always had a choice, to let it affect me, or not. well, i have to get affected, i have to do something right. perhaps my noble dream crashed and fused with something not right. i wonder, can i change who i am now? we'll see.

who should i go into youth camp as? isaac, or someone else who i shall not name? i'm deciding. but if i do go into camp not myself, then too bad.

2004-12-05T01:44:00.000+08:00

&random;

i've been playing around with words. so here's a very egoistic and weird post.

see, how often have we heard the phrase no one is perfect? i'm sure we have.

so, we're not perfect right? what does that make me?

imperfect.

read carefully.

i-m-perfect.

yeaps. i'm perfect. so sue me. lalala. i swear i'm getting influenced by ag's lameness. bugger him. heh.

2004-12-04T02:08:00.000+08:00

&after the sunset;

okay. i hope i got the title right.

just caught that movie. sunrise or sunset? nevermind.

yeaps, late night show. and guess what, i'm not home again. staying over at sam's place cos of bball with kieran tomorrow.

haha. i'm not gonna rate it, but they're some, well alot, of kissing scenes. haha. care to close your eyes? haha. anws, the ship was the one sam's working on. like, the exact same one. whoa.

apparently the ship is 6 star one, so it's really expensive. like, $10000 for a week? it's us dollars by the way. cost the movie people about half a million to rent the ship. cool ehs? inside scoop on things. haha.

i can be employed as an alarm clock. lol. so if you need me to wake you up, let me know. i can give morning calls! right. haha.

****
mel: hey, if you're reading this, don't get so depressed over ian k? i know he's really annoying, another justin in the making perhaps, but still. i mean, really, just leave him to God. pray about it, leave the problem with God. trust Him to handle it k? and no, you're not a bad leader or how you feel. you're where you are for a reason k, it's cos the pastors, adult leaders, and most importantly, God - they all believe in you, and so do i. if you ask me, i'd say you're one of the better leaders in sec2. not because we went through cclt, or because we're the first batch of sps, but because YOU have a heart to serve. you have a heart that cares for your sbs, and even if they don't say it, you should know that you're appreciated. at least i know some of them do. so don't give up at what you're doing, cos you're doing what you can do - help others, and pull them along side you, as you grow in God. you have that ability. and even if you question why God believes in you, cos you can't do some stuff, or you feel crap at something. but remember, man looks at the outer appearance, but God looks at your heart. let His strength be shown through your weaknesses. we're not perfect, nobody is, but God is. it is through our limitations and weakness, that God's power is shown. say for eg you're super good at leading, that's good, but because we're human, we get proud, we'll say we don't need God. God opposes the proud, cos He can't work through them. personally, i thank God i'm not perfect, cos it's through my imperfection that i know how much i need Him in my life to pull me through.

okay, i know i've said alot, but just take it slowly k. but whatever you do, don't stop believing in yourself, cos i believe in you, so do the pastors, your sbs, and most importantly, God. have confidence. (:
****

2004-12-02T03:02:00.000+08:00

&late nights;

lalala. i can't sleep.

as usual.

am staying over at mark's place. played fifa for the better part of the day. chatted online annoying and tricking people cos i could sign in to his wireless network with my ibook, thus pranking them on msn.

currently still playing fifa, but yeaps, it's late. haha. not sleeping much.

waiting for the liverpool match in the carling cup. mark wants to watch, so i'm staying up too. haha. i'd rather watch arsenal get thrashed by man utd. hopefully. they lose more, the morale goes down, and chelsea extend their league. haha.

think debo's staying up to watch the man utd game. she was apparently very bored a couple of hours ago. she left for phone calls some time ago.

haha. just watched one and a half hours of shows. will and grace, and dead like me. american tv.

oh, one more thing. if gerald's retarded friends add me again to a convo tmr, i'll kill him for sure on sat. yeaps.

2004-12-01T01:22:00.000+08:00

&yay;

finally!!! i've ripped 30 cds into itunes! after 4 hours!

another thing to note: bro's at d/l camp. house to myself in the morn and afternoons. whoopdeedoo!

2004-11-28T21:28:00.000+08:00

&boredom kills;

[simply me*] help. my brain is dying away. need. to. sleep. can't. sleep. help. [*ssenilenol] says:
don't miss her too much

right. fine. whatever. haha. it's not whoever you think it is. so stab yourself.

hmm. i miss the person cos the person isn't around - well, technically she just isn't at any of the possible communications channels, ie msn, her hp, etc... - and the reverse is true.

sighh. i miss shelltwin. xP. not that kind of miss, but it's boring without the person okay?

i'm so gonna get killed cos some people just refuse to accept what isn't and must think i'm being even more scandalous. right.

2004-11-28T21:23:00.000+08:00

&planetshakers;

before anyone asks me where/how to get 'open up the gates', i shall post it here.

www.planetshakersusa.com

don't bug me.

2004-11-28T18:24:00.000+08:00

&macintosh;

down with windows!

haha. whee. went to the expo with mum and dad in the morn. dragged me out of bed. -whines- but it was worth it! mhmm.

dad wanted to look at digicams, and i'm obviously taking it for camp. >.< who wants a 2.0 megapixel camera anyway? so he got a new one. he's still at the expo. he drove mum and i back home first. okay. yeaps.

continuing, i had a look at notebooks/laptops and stuff. the compaq presario v2000 was going at $2299/$2599. a $100 cheaper. but dad wanted to look around. good thing we did. apple ibook went for around $1899 or sth. but it's 12inch only. but who cares. i got it after looking around. why, you think, would i go for a 12inch one when there're 17inch laptops out there, esp the apple powerbook. see. mum and dad didn't wanna spend, like duh. so it had to be an ibook. either 12 or 14inch screen. specs were all similar. but the 14 inch one cost $300 more. so i used the extra $300 to upgrade my specs. haha. so yeaps. who cares if it's a 12 inch screen? i care, but, oh wells. and with the remaining cash, i bought a 20GB ipod. haha. pwnage. my folks rock eh? yeaps. ipod. SO DOWN WITH YOUR PATHETIC IPOD MINIS!!! they cost $90 less, but they're 16GB less too. stupid things. hehh. i spend close to $3000. it's err, advanced christmas shopping. mhmm.

wireless surfing!! serene macs + ibook. mhmm. msn at serene. rather cool eh? ((:

oh. and if you want me to get you a christmas present, you have to get me something. unless you're someone really important to me. if not, i'm not getting you one. see, i'm warning you in advance. i'm so nice. haha.

2004-11-27T23:59:00.000+08:00

&back;

i shall go back to blogging.

hmm. let's see. went for andrew's grandad's wake yesterday. met jeann at tp central, then got a lift from her parents. andrew's cousin remembers me as the person who dresses formally. like, okaaaay. then auntie rachel put me in charge of donations. like, okaaaaaay, yet again. haha. most of the people spoke chinese, like okaaaaay. hmm. then shannon give me a lighter, and tells me to light some food burner thing. then he asks me to take pictures. like, what am i man! oh. saw psy and bro terence there too. jeann managed to fall asleep standing. like, okaaaay. =/

then jeann and i left for tp central. shopped around for chloe's belated bday present. haha. cost, well, i'm not saying, cos she reads. lol. let's say i paid 3 notes for it. xP. go figure. then we walked around, went to popular. jeann decided to get her dad to pick her up, so we got lost around tp trying to find the place she was supposed to meet her dad. after she left, i took a bus to sam's place. stayed over, cos i was playing ball the next day, and the cc is just a 5mins walk away.

so yes, i played ball today. sprained ankle. was quite a good game. played 3. the easiest game, we lost 2-7. won the next two, which were tougher. haha. 7-6, 7-6. needed to warm up i guess. average 3pt shots is at 0.500, not bad i guess. i missed 3 open lay ups due to a sprained left ankle. can't elevate properly.

had lunch with kieran at tp. delayed, because my mum didn't pack my towel to bathe, so i had to wait for sam to come back from tp central to bathe at his place. shoots. was late for cell. gahh. oh, the underground jap food stall sells nice food.

went for cell. haha. only i know all 66 books so far. yawn. boring. service. sigh. i'm reminded of dre and josh leaving again and how much they impacted my life. sighh. cried yet again, cos i don't really want them to leave? dre is most likely leaving, unless he scores <8pts for o's. sighh. nevermind. talked to bro cy about it. guess i'll be fine. and like dre said, perhaps by God taking them away, He wants me to be more self-reliant? i dunno. sighh.

lcell. pwnage. i scored 7/8 points for my team in gel. it's like, guessing a word, with yes or no questions. danliu and his llama thing. haha. i so knew it after he gave the last letter. wenguang and i think along the same wavelength! =D anws, lcell was about giftings. i'm apparently thought to be serious, smart, intelligent, really prophetic, with the ability to be a great leader. how...encouraging i guess. i know who did the prophetic one. right clio? haha. who else do i freak out so much hmm? aren't you honoured? haha. it's not being prophetic, it's being smart and intelligent. hey! you guys already knew that. grrr. why didn't anyone say i was scandalous?! i'm really good at it what! i think. haha. and i could tell you how to improve being scandalous. okay, nevermind. haha.

2004-11-25T17:57:00.000+08:00

&travel;

korea in a nutshell - here goes.

food was bad, most of it.

weather was chilly but nice.

worse part was...there was nothing to buy. can you believe it! nothing to shop! who wants to buy chopsticks or some cheapo weird doll keychain things?

korea aside, i went out today to catch the polar express. here goes.

3.5/5. okay. no breakdown. go see it yourself. it's nice and all, but it's rather fairy tale like. the true spirit of christmas, yaddayadda. i prefer to believe it's about God, not santa claus. so yeaps.

caught it with mel, clio, and jessie lim. right. mark yong. hmph. disappeared, i don't wanna find out why. yeaps.

after the movie, i went shopping for charmaine's long overdue birthday present. hahas. i got it already okay! how many months overdue is it? (:

hmm. what shall i do tomorrow?

i'm playing ball - yay! finally! after 2 months! - with kieran at tp west cc on sat morn. so yeaps. shoots. there's lcell. i'm gonna have to take it slow. really. sighh.

leave me alone!

2004-11-24T23:19:00.000+08:00

&argh;

i didn't get any messages you people sent when i was in korea. must be the autoroaming thing's fault.

so like, if it's important, tell me again.

2004-11-18T18:16:00.000+08:00

&words;

Martial Arts: Be Like water..flow with the moments, Calm like a flowing river..Violent like the crashing waves, peak of skills!!! says:
crapping till dinner time
LiGhT =)) Jesus would You light my way ü owww. sunburn says:
dun tink jared will ever run out of crap
chris says:
...eww.
.: i l e n a :. Sono cosí felice!! says:
well i dun wanna crap wif ur lah k?
play play play play PLAY!!! says:
whoa
Martial Arts: Be Like water..flow with the moments, Calm like a flowing river..Violent like the crashing waves, peak of skills!!! says:
u have to

like, right. mhmm.

2004-11-18T17:26:00.000+08:00

&connexions;

play play play play PLAY!!! says:
we are gathered here on this most happy occasion to join jared's foot and mel's umbrella in holy matrimony

haha. marriages are fun! whee.

2004-11-18T01:07:00.000+08:00

&old;

hehh. am chatting with leon online now.

sighh. gonna miss the old vs group. ah well.

2004-11-17T23:50:00.000+08:00

&strike;

played ball with kieran in the morn. toa payoh west cc. just for practice. oh man. i drained only 2 out of my first 10 3point shots. urgh. i need prac. prob gonna ball again when i come back from korea. bathed at the cc, then took the mrt down to kovan.

ate lunch. kfc. met drew and danielle. went to hougang superbowl. the balls there are really crappy. my thumb hurts. hahas. won all 4 games. my average was err, rubbish. 100 pins?! eeps. i'm really off.

headed down to orchard. window shopped a bit. met sis eileen. had dinner. set off to church. had prayer meeting. came home. feeling way depressed now cos of stuff. mel's right. why can't it be a more simplistic and straightfoward world.

whatever.

like, leave me alone. i want solitude. maybe the trip to korea is good after all. i won't have to see my cell for a week. and there's no lce, so there's no seeing unwanted people.

but there's lcell next sat. my thoughts are just so mixed up. i don't wanna talk it through - don't ask me too. maybe jon's right. i'm disappointed with myself. i don't wanna think. i don't wanna know. i don't wanna do, sense, see, what others can't.

2004-11-16T18:21:00.000+08:00

¶dox;

see, i've been thinking alot nowadays. probably cos i have more time to. here's one thing that struck me.

how often do we hear the phrase, 'a random sequence'? i guess it's drilled into our brains to accept it as an illogical sequence or pattern. what's wrong, you may ask?

let's define the 2 words.

random: having no specific pattern, purpose, or objective

sequence: a related or continuous series

this is therefore, a paradox. thank you for reading this. you have probably wasted a few minutes of your time.

2004-11-15T18:58:00.000+08:00

&boredom kills;

are you bored during the holidays?

presenting...10 ways to overcome boredom, by me! hahas.

1) go watch movies. really. with the many upcoming movies to be realised, chris suggests a movie a day, that should keep the boredom away.

2) go on holidays. get out of the house, and out of the country. snap out of the everyday mundane lifestyle. however, it is advised to plan your holidays in advance, or you may not get return flights back to singapore and be left stranded.

3) go out for meals. i know, you're thinking that's a waste of money. but who knows? just go to your nearby mall. you may just meet a few old friends there.

4) rent videos/vcds/dvds. invite friends over. buy popcorn. voila! your own movie theatre at home! even better if you have digital surround. hahas. you may wish to charge your friends for entry.

5) go for camp! yeaps. youth camp. 6th-10th of december. sign up today. for those from other churches, i hope you have youth camps too. if not, you can always try...

6) break a record. it can be personal, or a world record,. up to you.

7) read. go to the library, borrow 4 books, preferably interesting thick reads. go home, rest on the couch, and start getting lost in the tales so cleverly woven by those great writers.

8) run. yes, run. who wants to go train the 8km route at macritchie? hahas. preferably after i come back from korea, that is. it's a great way to keep fit.

9) bowl. it's what i do when i'm bored. i know it's expensive, but still, it's enjoyable. mhmm. and last but not least, you can...

10) go to church! i mean besides services and all. i mean cell, prayer meetings and all. yeahh. isn't it great? hahas.

2004-11-15T17:32:00.000+08:00

&run me over;

hmm. today. let's see.

went to the airport early in the morn. sam came back from the us of a. mhmm. lalala.

went out to plaza sing later on. caught taxi with bryan, shawn, and others. others being evil people. really. at least one of them is evil anyways. like, it's bryan's fault i sat next to sarah. it's bryan's fault i was caught in the crossfire of a popcorn fight, resulting in sarah stuffing popcorn down my shirt. sick right? agreed man. sighh. girls these days. hahas. and i was smsing chloe about how she should try to be more ladylike! mhmm.

taxi wasn't that good, wasn't that bad either. to safe myself the trouble of analysing it, i'd give it a 2.5/5 rating. it was rather sick, shall we say? yeahh. mhmm. the close eyes method at inappropriate scenes thing is good. yeaps.

gonna watch the forgotten with sam tomorrow. then pop by sim lim to have a look at laptops.

2004-11-14T16:01:00.000+08:00

&guns and roses;

right. am watching bowling for columbine on axn now. it's nc16. hahas. yeahh. interesting. -yawn- getting bored.

supposed to go watch princess diaries with the family later.

then heading down to my uncle's place, cos my cousin's coming back from USA later at 1am.

met bro ag earlier. yeaps. chat about cell and stuff. any guesses who else was there? no prizes though. (:

2004-11-12T19:16:00.000+08:00

&quizzle;

what

1. r u doing? this.

2. r u wearing? shirt, shorts.

3. r u eating? just had dinner. nothing now.

4. r u listening to? u2 - vertigo

5. thinking of? battle royale.

6. r u going to do after this? chat on msn.

7. is ur fave book? loads. read my friendster profile.

8. ur fave song? still.

9. ur fave food n drinks? continental. ice lemon tea.

---who---

1. are ur best friend? God.

2. are the person u like? like in what sense?

3. is ur favorite person in the world? me! duh.

4. is there any guy in ur life ryt now? ...right.

5. are ur favorite artist? u2.

6. is ur favorite singer? n/a

7. was the last phone call to? don't rem. didn't make any today.

8. last sms from? jeann.

9. last call from? mark.

10. last fight? attempted fight? yesterday.

11. person to visit your house? dunno.

--- when---

1. did u last cry? yesterday.

2. did u last yell at ur fren? i won't yell..

3. did u last yell at ur sibling? so long ago i can't rem.

4.did u last have a bad mood? yesterday.

5. last downloaded a song? download as in? prob the u2 album a few days ago from sam. it's free on the net. sample. ((: it's LEGAL okay.

6. bought a cd? eons ago.

7. bought clothes? last thurs.

8. did u last talk to ur friends? an hour ago? mark - on the phone.

9. last party? can't rem.

10. last hangover? dunno.

11. last cigz? i don't smoke.

12. last helped a friend? define help.

13. last being helped by a friend? define being helped.

2004-11-12T13:40:00.001+08:00

&outing;

hmm. let's see.

gathered for poisonball and monkey. i decided to be nice and not hit justin below the belt, in that area, if you know what i mean. mhmm.

then it's was free and easy. i was feeling off? so i was msging twin and all on some web like structure. then played volleyball, got pissed again at justin. met samuel oh. my xcountry captain. ran 6.3km to cool off. he ran his usual 10km. hahas. pro guy.

bbq. ate only 1 nugget, 2 sausages. fell sick, gastric. hahas.

left after doing stuff. charmaine is scandalous. why on earth is her profile name 'i love chris' ? lol. weirdness. mel practically shouted it. hehh.

2004-11-12T13:40:00.000+08:00

&more charges;

004) people who disgrace their school by wearing their school attire, in any form, and swearing and cursing on the phone at a public shopping centre. enough said.

005) the acting pro. people who think they're so good at something, that they demand you to do what they claim they can do. but ends up, they're worse than you. but they blame it on an off-form day, or other excuses. "i'm not wearing my soccer boots." hello, so you're just always having an off day right? and so it's your soccer boots that make you good? go die la.

006) bad is good. "i'm my school's number one paikia!" proud of it eh? hello. go freaking die already. next you say all your teachers like you? go die again. teachers in st gab's like bad people? that's nice. who believes justin, put up your hands? i can't see any.

007) uncivilised males. let's see. chloe was playing soccer yesterday, and justin had to like, what, be rough on her? that's so freaking idiotic? it's a friendly match. key word - FRIENDLY. and she's a girl? don't crap and say that's how the singapore team plays. you're so not in the s'pore team, if you were i'll be in texas playing for the spurs. and mark will be playing for liverpool. we're both better than you? and what, chloe scored the first goal? at least give her some freaking respect, not dissing it as some poor defending on our part or what. at least she can hit the target, unlike you.

008) acting innocent. he claims he didn't do any of the aforementioned things. what the... oh man. i hate denials.

009) false accusations. you're accusing me of freaking picking a fight with you? you freaking said the f word to me in my face and i'm supposed to let you off right? i swear on sat, you're so dead. i'll kill you literally in front of all sec1 and 2s. you are so dead.

basically. i hate justin. he is totally annoying. i shall refrain from explitives.

2004-11-11T13:30:00.000+08:00

&street soccer;

lalala.

mark is evil. he called me at 9:10am and asked me to go down for soccer. i was like, okay.

eeps. okay. so the sec1s are not bad. haha! they scored first. guess who? chloe. hahas. justin got so pissed.

justin is urgh. nevermind. whee.

we won. so yeahh. i only scored once. cos i didn't warm up, resulting in a thigh strain, and some person stepped on my toe. ouch. hmph. it hurts. yeahh.

2004-11-11T01:51:00.000+08:00

&death;

okay. came back long ago from sam's bro's wake. well, it was some experience. must be hard on samuel, losing his bro at 14years of age. younger bro. and he's the only child left. but hey, at least matthew's with God now. so that's good.

i'm dead bored. listening to the U2 album sam, my cousin, not the sec2 one, sent me. hahas.

how to build an atomic bomb - U2
1) Vertigo
2) Miracle Drug
3) Sometimes You Can't Make It
4) Love And Peace Or Else
5) City Of Blinding Lights
6) All Because Of You
7) A Man And A Woman
8) Crumbs From Your Table
9) One Step Closer
10) Original Of The Species
11) Yahweh

mhmm. i love u2. this kind of rock beats your simple plan or whatnot hands down. ((:

to a place called vertigo...

2004-11-10T14:58:00.000+08:00

&scandal ii;

-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
...i dont.
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
i KNOW. hahas!!
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
aha
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
i noe
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
-dies-
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
haha
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
tskkkkkk.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
I KNOWWWW
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
oh man.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
AWWWWWWWWW
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
too badd
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
?!
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
mel's so gna kill me.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
awww. dun tink about it isaac.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
daydreammm
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
yeahh. i would like you. but see, there's this other person la. so sad right?
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
-dies-
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
HAH
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
i see!!
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
this is amusingggg.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
[name withheld] is a replacement!!
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
WHAT?!
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
ah hah!
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
CHARMAINE IS SICK
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
using her as an excuse huh huh huh?
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
so scandalous!
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
what?!
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
you're...talking nonsense k!
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
sigh. i nv expected you to be so scandalous and sneakyyy
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
-tsk-
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
i am so not.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
you are so are
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
hahahaha
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
right.
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
prove it.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
aww. someone's trying to protect himself
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
=))
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
...charmaine!!!!
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
this is ridiculous!
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
Hello =))
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
i know why you're doing this alreadyyyy.
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
it's because you want to get back at me right?
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
tskk.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
... whattt...
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
you're more scandalous k.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
i am nott
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
yes you are.
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
sighhh.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
why wld i wanna get back at youu
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
cos...you know. hahas.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
there are better people aroundddd
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
=D
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
you!!!!
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
i know? i know what? -hmmm-
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
you...
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
sighh.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
what do i noe huh?
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
-thinks-
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
i dont noe anything. =))
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
im i-n-n-o-c-e-n-t

...oh man. charmaine! i'm gonna start avoiding you. mhmm.

2004-11-10T14:53:00.000+08:00

&scandal;

charmaine is definitely scandalous.

-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
you want to replace my wife right?
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
dream onnnnn.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
NO
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
NONONO
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
dont deny it la.
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
sighhh.
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
like i want to lah! ahha
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
you...
welcome to my life -simple plan // "i was so close to tears that i cried"- NOT ME says:
whyy. you wish ah
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
i know you want to...but...it's wrong.

oh man. charmaine is just...ewww. hahas!

2004-11-10T14:19:00.000+08:00

&movie;

watched sky captain today.

graphics fall short of expectations. fusion of 3d animation and humans didn't blend. colours were dull too.

plot was curiously interesting.

sound? average.

plot: 3.5/5
graphics: 2/5
sound: 2.5/5
total: 8/15

fine. i was being nice. it's not that good.

cell outing tomorrow. soccer match tomorrow. wake tonight. why lcell? i so wanna quit lcell already.

2004-11-10T13:50:00.000+08:00

&quizzles;

your mum is
a really good mum.

your dad is
a really good dad.

your sister is
non existant. unless it's my err, 'sis'. eeps.

your brother is
obsessed with the ps2 right now.

your best friends are
people i can trust with my life.

your boyfriend/girlfriend is
non existant.

your crush is
what crush?

your grandmas are
non-english speaking.

your grandpa is
hmm. not with us anymore.

your teachers are
...what teachers?

.:: s t u f f t h a t i h a v e ::.

your school bag is
blue, deuter starlite.

your pencil case is
orange and black, billabong.

your PC is
mine. ((: all mine. hahas. but it's win 98. cos the family wants the XP one, so i don't mind a comp of my own.

your wallet is
ck. leather. black.

your camera is
1) hp - between 0.5 - 1 megapixel [n6230]
2) pda - 1.3 megapixels [sony clie]
3) digicam - 2.0 megapixles. [random crap one]

[advertisement: who wants to get me a sony cybershot 7.2 megapixel camera for christmas?]

your mobile is
a n6230.

your books are
in the bookshelves.

your accessories are
ring, bracelet, necklace. worth more than $700. whee. haha. i'm ostentatious.

your sunglasses are
my glasses. hahas. 2 in 1. tinted purple, uv reflecting rubbish thing.

your towel is
a towel.

your teddy is
a bear.

your alarm clock is
a function of the n6230.

------------------------------------------------

.:: w h a t i t h i n k of ::.

music is
my radar.

life is
parklife.

friends are
social connections.

loved ones are
people who you trust with your life.

school is
an institution, which in the education system of singapore, aims to develop wholistically, the self.

books are
contradictory and confusing pieces of paper binded together.

love is
God.

.:: w h a t i m w e a r i n g n o w:.

your shirt is
ralph lauren. branded.

your shorts/trousers is
pants from u2.

your shoes are
not on me.

your jacket is
vsgep perspectives 2003.

your socks are
in the shoe cabinet.

your belt is
yves saint laurent.

****

-Name ======= isaachristian
-Nick ======== chris.
-Skool ======= none.
-D.O.B =======sixteenth[april]onenineninezero
-Birthplace ==== mt alvenia.
-Horoscope === don't know, don't care either. (:
-Location ===== singapore.
-Hp number === 98717480
-Status ====== single, and loving it.
-Height ====== 172cm
-Religion ===== christian
-Person love ======= not you.
-Person Missed ===== not you either.
-Message sent ====== hitomi.
-Message received ==== hitomi.
-Call dialled ========= bryan.
-Call received ======== jessie lim.

**************QuEsTiOnS**************
1) dO yOu GeT jEaLoUs EaSiLy?
==== yeahh. so?

2) wHaT hV u Been DoiN fOr tHe pasT feW daYs?
==== watching movies.

3)LaSt MoVieS taT u WatCh? wiTh whO?
==== sky captain. bryan.

4)HaVe u cRieD BefOre?
==== ...need i say?

5)SeRioUs iN LOVe BefoRe?
==== perhaps.

6)wHaT iS tHe 1sT tHiNg taT coMes tO uR MiNd?
==== ...when.

7)FaV soNg?
==== still.

8)wHaT u pLaNNiN tO dO tiS weeKeN?
==== go to church. go bowling. stone.

9)dO u cLuB?
==== go figure. do i look like i do or not?

10)dO u sMokE?
==== no.

11)aNy ppLe iN LoVe wiTh u nOw?
==== God.

12)dO u pRefeR sMs oR TalkiN oN pHoNe?
==== both.

13)R u MissiN suM1 nOw?
==== perhaps.

14)wHaT aRe YoU dOiNg NoW?
==== this stupid quiz? what kind of question is this?

15)wHen iS tHe LaSt tiMe u ReCeiVe fLoweRs?
==== not telling. like, go die.

16)1 WoRd tO SaY bOuT u?
==== complicated.

17)NaMe ur beSt frEnZ?
==== go figure.

18)wHo u waNa kiSS nOw?
==== no one.

19)iN LoVe wiTh aNy1nOw?
==== perhaps, God. yeahh. i think so. stupid question.

20)1 peRsoN whO u wiSh tO sPeNd uR LiFe witH?
==== i wanna spend eternity with You.

2004-11-10T01:09:00.000+08:00

&twins!;

-jolyn- [[wonders..coughs.ow.]]-http://in-the-midst.blogspot.com /- unquenchable_worship@christiangirl.com-new email. says:
sheep dreams=) go count sheep
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
im gna count SHEEP!
-jolyn- [[wonders..coughs.ow.]]-http://in-the-midst.blogspot.com /- unquenchable_worship@christiangirl.com-new email. says:
haha
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
haha!
-jolyn- [[wonders..coughs.ow.]]-http://in-the-midst.blogspot.com /- unquenchable_worship@christiangirl.com-new email. says:
haha
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
hey!
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
you read my mind.
-chris- // s u p e r f i c i a l i t y [starry nights * scars of the wilderness.] says:
night
-jolyn- [[wonders..coughs.ow.]]-http://in-the-midst.blogspot.com /- unquenchable_worship@christiangirl.com-new email. says:
duh
-jolyn- [[wonders..coughs.ow.]]-http://in-the-midst.blogspot.com /- unquenchable_worship@christiangirl.com-new email. says:
twins
-jolyn- [[wonders..coughs.ow.]]-http://in-the-midst.blogspot.com /- unquenchable_worship@christiangirl.com-new email. says:
haha

wheee. my twin rocks. hahas. sheep! ((:

2004-11-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

&charges continue;

003) screwed spelling. teens with this trait think it's really cool to type /start/ lyk dis coz it rawks n itz sho uber funkae sia /end/. it's just utterly disgraceful. common words used by these people are "wadeva", "LoLx!!", "sia", etc... please note, i have nothing against short forms. i just have something against people who can't care about typing properly just because they're on msn. changing word forms is different from short forms. for eg. something can be replaced by sth, but not be sumting. it's just a sign of a weak control of the english language.

any takers on who inspired me to write this?

2004-11-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

&angst rant;

here's what's new.

i now detest people who certain words. well, maybe not all you lot. those who invite words that are derived from already renowned words are spared from my wrath. but you. you hopeless creatures. let's take you to court!

the accused: your average crap teenager.

charge: defouling language in general, not even english ; attitude problems

evidence:

001) a single four letter word. no it's not the f word you idiots. it's c-h-i-o. see. research throughout the different languages has proven that 'chio' has no roots in any languages. it is therefore, deemed, not a proper word, as the use of it is forbidden. however, it doesn't end there. this disgraceful term has evolved into a newer and more deadly word - 'chiobu'. it is commonly used by despotic guys who have just sighted a pretty/goodlooking or in their language, 'chio', girl. once a 'chiobu' is sighted, the guy(s) proceed to wolfwhistling, and attempting to ask for the girl's number. reaction of the female species varies from person to person.

002) the pretenciously cute. oh get real. these are like, your subpar, below average bimbo like creatures. wait. they even disgrace bimbos. goodness. i refuse to go on.

the world's a superficial place honey. don't like it? get out of it. ((:

more charges will be pressed at the next hearing.

court adjourned.

2004-11-09T20:14:00.000+08:00

&yawn;

i'm sleeping too much lately.

got cellular today. not bad. though there was the f word in there. and some kid behind me kept saying that phrase over and over, despite his parents' attempts to hush him. amusing.

yay. twin got a blog! hahas!

yawn. movie tomorrow. sky captain. eeps. oh wells.

dinner with the lcell tomorrow at 6. then down to samuel's bro's wake. gotta cancel my intended dinner with psy.

2004-11-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

&quizzle;

starting time?
11:00pm

Who......
was the last person who called you?
i don't remember. eeps.

was the last person whom you called?
danyeow.

...was your last missed call from?
abel.

...was the last person who messaged you?
jeann

...was the last person you message to?
jeann

...was the last person you said 'good morning' to?
err, the columbian pastor..

...was your first best friend?
shane.

...is/are your current best friend(s)?
God.

...last made you cry?
dunno.

...last made you smile?
dunno. do i smile that often? hahas.

...you last went out with?
i have no idea. i'm really forgetful nowadays.

...was the last person who gave you a testimonial?
charmaine. tskk. ((:

...was the last person you gave a testimonial to?
charmaine! ((: -dies- so scandalous.

...was the last person that added you on friendster?
ray-shio.

What...
...did you last touched?
keyboard.

...did you last thought of?
how i'm gonna sleep.

...did you last watched?
epl highlights.

...music did you last listened to?
message tone.

...did you last ate?
spag.

...did you last drank?
water.

...are you wearing?
clothes.

...mall have you last been to?
j8.

...movie have you last watched in the cinema?
shark tale. "hi. i'm lenny."

...do you think about this survey?
...

finishing time?
11:06pm.

01. Your name?
isaachristian.

02. Hangouts?
church. j8. bball courts..

03. Gender?
male.

04. Primary school?
sajs, rosyth.

05. Level:
sec2.

06. Horoscope:
don't know, don't care.

07. Secondary school?
VS

08. Address:
...right.

09. Email add?
streamofconsciousness@gmail.com

10. Hair?
what about it?

11. Eye colour?
blue

12. Hair colour?
brown.

13. Right or left handed?
ambidexterous.

14. Marital status?
single.

15. Siblings?
one bro. and err, other diis and meis. and oh. my err, sis, who frequently threatens me with her phone.

16. Last 4 digits of your mobile No?
7480.

17. When's your Birthday?
sixteenth[april]

18. Do you have a Car?
no.

=====================
*Have you...*
21. Tried smoking? -
no.

22. Drank alcohol -
yes.

23. Been hurt emotionally -
yeaps.

24. Kept a secret from anyone-
yeaps.

25. Been on stage -
yeaps.

=====================
*Favourites*
26. Color -
orange, crimson, black.

27. Food -
continental. and chocs.

28. Drinks -
ice lemon tea.

29. Number -
16

30. Cartoons -
anime.

31. Sports -
bball.

32. Song -
still.

33. Movie -
the butterfly effects.

34. Subject -
lit.

=====================
*Right now*
36. Wearing -
clothes.

37. Hairstyle -
messed up..

38. Looking at -
the computer screen?

39. Thinking of -
how i'm gonna fall asleep.

=====================
*Do you believe in...*
41. Love -
yeaps.

42. Faith -
yeaps

43. Yourself -
to a certain extent..

44. Ghosts -
no

45. Angels -
err?

=====================
*Iin the last 24hrs...*
47. Cleaned your room -
what room?

48. Cried -
yeaps.

49. Met someone new -
sort of.

50. Last person I talk to on the phone -
mark.

=====================
*Love life*
51. Do you have a gf/bf beFOre?
yeahh..

52. Have a secret admirer?
it's secret right? stupid.

53. Do you wanna get married ?
i guess.

54. Do you plan on having kids -
i'm not the one who's gonna give birth.

56. How old you wanna be when you have your first child?
ideally 21. as if.

57. How many kids do you want?
no idea.

60. What do you want most in a Relationship?
trust, openess.

=====================
*Either one*
61. Pink or Black?
black.

62. Kiss or hug?
hug

63. Summer or winter?
winter.

64. Sunny or rainy?
rainy.

65. Chocolate or vanilla?
chocolate.

66. Hanging out or chillin?
hanging out.

67. Music or TV?
music.

68. Hamburger or Pizza?
eh. pizza. less fattening.

69. Smile or Laughing?
smile.

70. Sleeping or eating?
sleeping.

71. Mc Donald's or KFC?
anything.

72. Silver or gold?
silver.

73. Sunset or sunrise?
sunrise.

74. On phone or in person?
in person.

75. Diamonds or Pearls?
diamond..

L A Y E R O N E
-- Name: isaachristian
-- Birthday: sixteenth[april]oneninenineoh
-- Birthplace: singapore
-- Current Location: in front of the comp.
-- Eye Color: blue
-- Hair: black
-- Righty Or Lefty: ambidexterous.

L A Y E R T W O
-- Your Heritage: chinese.
-- The Shoes You Wore Today: track shoes?
-- Your Weakness: the stuff in mel's hp. eeps.
-- Your Fears: mel. xP
-- Your Perfect Pizza: eh?
-- Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: grow to 175cm.

L A Y E R T H R E E
-- Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: right.
-- Your Thoughts First Waking Up: what am i going to do today?
-- Your Best Physical Feature: i dno.
-- Your Bedtime: past midnight.
-- Your Most Missed Memory: gahh.

L A Y E R F O U R
-- Pepsi Or Coke: pepsi
-- McDonald's Or Burger King: bk.
-- Single Or Group Dates: depends.
-- Lipton Ice tea Or Nestea: lipton.
-- Chocolate Or Vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappuccino Or Coffee: cappuccino.

L A Y E R F I V E: Do You...
-- Smoke: no
-- Cuss: No
-- Sing: yeahh
-- Take A Shower Everyday: duh
-- Do You Think You've Been In Love: with God, yes.
-- Want To Go To College: already am.
-- Liked High School: not really.
-- Want To Get Married: perhaps.
-- Believe In Yourself: yeahh
-- Get Motion Sickness: i think so.
-- Think You're Attractive: ...
-- Think You're A Health Freak: yes
-- Get Along With Your Parents: yes
-- Like Thunderstorms: no
-- Play An Instrument: no

L A Y E R S I X: In The Past Month...
-- Drank Alcohol: yes
-- Smoked: no
-- Done A Drug: no
-- Gone On A Date: yes
-- Gone To The Mall: yes
-- Eaten An Entire Box Of Oreos: no
-- Eaten Sushi: yes
-- Been On Stage: no
-- Been Dumped: no.
-- Gone Skinny Dipping: no.
-- Stolen Anything: no

L A Y E R S E V E N: Ever...
-- Been Trashed Or Extremely Intoxicated: no
-- Been Called A Tease: no. eww
-- Gotten Beaten Up: no
-- Shoplifted: no

L A Y E R E I G H T
-- How Do You Want To Die: naturally.
-- What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up: no idea.
--What Country Would You Most Like To Visit: switzerland

L A Y E R N I N E: In a girl/guy
-- Best Eye Color: brown
-- Best Hair Color: black/brown.
-- Short Or Long Hair: shoulder-length? i have no idea.
-- Height: 15-16 ish?
-- Best Weight: lighter than me. =/
-- Best article of clothing: ...

L A Y E R T E N
-- Number Of Drugs Taken: loads of medicine.
-- Number Of People I Could Trust With My Life: 3.
-- Number Of CDs That I Own: dunno.
-- Number Of Piercings: none, for now.
-- Number Of Tattoos: none.
-- Number Of Things In My Past That I Regret: loads.

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME?
wong zhen jie isaac christian

2. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?
black

3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
nothing.

4. LAST THING YOU ATE?
chocs.

5. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
no.

6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
grey

7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
it's 11:32pm. what do you think?

8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE:
mark.

9. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?
...eeps.

10. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
extremely sleepy. yawn. i'm turning piggy. =/

11. FAVORITE DRINK?
ice lemon tea.

12. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
no pref. anything but beer.

13. FAVORITE SPORT?
bball.

14. HAIR COLOR?
brown.

15. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
no

17. SIBLINGS?
younger bro.

18. FAVORITE MONTH?
april.

19. FAVORITE FOOD?
chocs.

20. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
shark tale.

21. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
i dno.

22. WHAT DO YOU DO TO VENT ANGER?
pray, go for a run.

23. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
=/

24. SUMMER OR WINTER?
winter.

25. HUGS OR KISSES?
hugs.

26. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
chocs.

27. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE/E-MAIL BACK?
...

28. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
...

29. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
...

30. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS?
right. with my family?

31. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
yesterday.

32. WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED?
err, the floor i think. hmm, i'm not really sure. -.-

33. WHO IS THE FRIEND YOU HAVE HAD THE LONGEST?
God.

34. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?
sleep.

35. FAVORITE SMELLS?
fresh flowers.

36. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
sheep. lolz.

37. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
stuff.

38. PLAIN, BUTTERED OR SALTED POPCORN?
don't like popcorn.

39. FAVORITE CAR?
bmw.

40. FAVORITE FLOWER?
rose.

41. NUMBER OF KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
3.

42. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
no.

43. FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK?
saturday.

44. WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
sit in the sun watching vs annual sports day at vj. eeps.

45. DO YOU OWN A DONOR CARD?
no

46. DO YOU LIKE TO TRAVEL?
yeahh.

47. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND RIGHT NOW?
God.

2004-11-07T13:13:00.000+08:00

&quizzles;

Message:

1.what race or religion must your lover be?
*christian

2.What cca or interest you want your lover be in or like?
*any cca that brings about wholistic development of the self. lolz. =D

3.what sort of eyes you want your lover to have?
*blue. mhmm. xP. nahh. hazel, or brown.

4.what hair color you wish your lover have?
*anything which isn't striking neon coloured. reminds me of alias ads on axn.

5a.like your lover to be shy?
*balance between that and outgoing.

5b.rough?
*girl? rough. -dies-

5c.rich?
*doesnt' matter..

5d.Clever,v clever?
*well, it's a plus point right?

5e.Concern u?
* yeahh.

5f.Know ur darkest darkest secrets?Or v embarrasing secrets?
*i guess relationships are built on trust.

5g.tanned?
*doesn't matter.

5h.kind of vain?
*just don't ask me what you should wear and take 2 hours choosing clothes, etc...

5i.waste food?
* ...

6.do you mind a kiss from your lover?
*depends.

6a.hugs?
*depends.

6b.100 roses?
*not that many.

6c.a long call everyday?
*nope. not always. phone bill. eeps.

6d.go everywhere you go except washrooms and else where?
*stalker.

6e.expensive gift?
*guys give the gifts..

7.what is the ideal height of ur lover?
*shorter than me, but not that short la.

8.ideal weight?
*lighter than me. i hope.

9.do u mind your lover being unhygienic?
*yes.

10.do you mind if your lover kips having sweaty hands?
*err, no..

11.do you like a cold hand?
*go get a jacket.

12.do u mind your lover to be a person that keeps an eye on his spendings?
*it's good. i don't mind.

13.What do you really expect from him?
*be real. don't try to be somebody else.

****

Message:

1. Do you like to play basketball? yeaps.

2. Is blue your fav colour? nope.

3. Do you have someone in mind? well, yeahh. you do think about people what.

4. Are you in a relationship? with God.

5. What are your fav movie? the butterfly effects.

6. Any sisterS? nope.

7. Any brotherS? only 1.

8. Do you play truant? lolz. right.

9. What are ur fav radio stations? don't listen

10. What course u take? ...

11. Where can you be found? anywhere.

12. Who is your fav idol? i don't idolise people.

13. What is your fav subject? lit.

14. Which company did you attend lately? ...

15. Who argue with you most of the time? hmm. debate? mel.

16. Who would you like to meet? God. so save me now. ((:

17. What are you thinking now? i need lunch.

18. What is your last problem in mind now? cell gahh.

19. Do you wear specs? yeaps.

20. Your fav boyband? don't have one.

21. Do you use sling bag or bagpack? no pref.

22. Do you prefer chocolate or strawberry? chocs.

23. Do you like branded stuff? duh.

24. Is frienz important to you? yeahh.

25. Do you buy cd's? nope.

26. Who you love most in your family? i believe in equality..

27. What is your fav cartoons? ...right.

28. When is the last time you go shopping? thursday.

29. What is your weight? ...47kg. i'm heavy. hmph.

30. What is your ht? 172cm

31. Do you nag? yes.

32. Do you create havoc? -angelic smile-.

33. If you are to chose what you wan to be in future, what will you be? no idea. whatever God wants me to be.

34. What is the frequent word you use daily? i need a new fav word.

35. Which hp model you own now?? 6230

36. Do you use line or top-up card? line

37. What you like to be in future? refer to above.

38. What you hate about urself? gahh. nothing. mhmm.

39. How was life recently to you? pressurising.

40. Who was the last person who approach to have an engagement with you? ...

41. What do you receive for your birthday? presents. duh.

42. Which s'pore idol you voted to win? ken.

43. Which song(s) best represent what you are: no idea.

2004-11-04T21:02:00.000+08:00

&shopping spree;

whee.

just came back from j8. bought 2 u2 shirts for $49.

i want more! -whines-

i want a vest thing. those funny things that the golfers wear. it looks nice. i don't care if i sound spoilt. i already am, so deal with it. don't like me? go jump, cos i'll be around longer than you to make your life miserable.

yay. i got cash. i want to go shopping. a certain someone claims shopping is feminine - i beg to differ. it isn't. if you don't shop, how'd you get what you want? are guys suppose to suffer with poor choice of clothes? maybe that's what happened to the scots and their supposed kilts, which i still insist, are skirts for men gone wrong.

let's go bowling one day. who's interested. probably next week.

2004-11-04T11:30:00.000+08:00

&quizzles;

o1. what song are you listening to right now?
` beautiful day - U2
o2. shirt you are wearing now?
` nike jersey-like thing.
o3. have you showered?
` yeaps.
o4. now who is on your mind?
` hahas. whether a certain piggy woke up in time to eat breakfast.
o5. now, whose lyrics do you like so much?
` the hand song - nickel creek
o6. now, where do you want to go?
` watch a movie! ):
o7. what movie do you want to watch in the
cinema?
` princess diaries, cellular, sharktale
o8. now, what do you want to do?
` eat lunch
09. now, what are you eating and drinking?
` instant noodles.
10. current mood right now?
` awake. nonchalent.
11. when was your last birthday?
` sixteen[ohfour] of this year.
12. where did you buy your school bag?colour?
` carrefour at suntec during a sale for deuter bags. blue,grey..
13. where did you buy your pencilbox? colour?
` can't remember.billabong, black and orange
14. how was school today?
` i'm schless remember?
15. shampoo
` body shop.
16. shower cream/soap?
` body shop.
17. facial wash?
` neutrogena deep clean or sth like that. ha. it's american so you can't buy it here. -ego-

-STUDIES-
o1. best subject?[marks]
literature. 86

o2. worst subject?
math. 67

o3. for your last exam, what was your position
in?
5th. dropped 2 places.

-LAST TIME-
o1. last time you fall in love?
can't be bothered.

o2. last movie you watched?
can't remember

o3. last shirt you wore before this shirt?
star trek exhibition thing. was dunno how long ago.

o4. last thing you held?
handphone.

o5. last time you cried?
dunno.

o6. last place you went?
the sofa to watch tv.

o7. last sms you received?
jeann, in the morning. cough.

o8. last person who instant messaged you?
should be mel, yesterday.

o9. last testimonial you got?
mel. =/

[ Last ] letter of ur FULL name? = [n]
[ Last ] thing you ate? = [instant noodles.]
[ Last ] thing u drink? = [water]
[ Last ] song you listen? = [shiny happy people - rem]
[ Last ] thing you do? = [eat]
[ Last ] movie you watch? = [don't rem]
[ Last ] TV show you watch? = [repeat of samurai x]
[ Last ] person you have a crush on? = [like i would tell you.]
[ Last ] person who sent you a sms ? = [jeann]
[ Last ] time you clean your room? = [what room? i'm kicked out of my room!]
[ Last ] CD you bought? = [for all You've done]
[ Last ] word you said? = [hi]
[ Last ] time you cried? = [don't rem.]
[ Last ] person who you chat with online ? = [no one. hahas. i don't remember. wait, i think jon ho]
[ Last ] person u add onto ur list? = [some despotic guitarist. cough cough.]
[ Last ] person you bite? = [?!]
[ Last ] website you went? = [friendster]
[ Last ] time you shop? = [dunno. unless you consider browsing through clothes but not buying.]
[ Last ] person you hate? = [...]
[ Last ] person u tink of? = [...]
[ Last ] person u would wan to see now? = [the last person. ah. good qn. justin or mark. i don't wanna see them.]
[ Last ] person u wanna talk to? = [err, dre when you're depressed..]
[ Last ] thing u wanna see on ur result slip? = [a fail?]
[ Last ] no. of ur hp? = [0]
[ Last ] survey you did? = [this]
[ Last ] words? = [riiiiiiiight.]

1.Name: isaachristian

2.Were you named after anyone?: i don't know..

4.Which finger is your favorite?: ...no idea.

5.When did you last cry?: dunno

6.Do you like your handwriting?: yeaps.

7. What is your favorite protein food?: protein shakes?

8.Any bad habits?: duh

9.What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?: what cd? i use mp3s for crying out loud.

10.If you were another person, would you be friends WITH you?: why not? =D

11.Are you a daredevil?: at times.

12.Have you ever told a secret you swore not
to tell?: yes. it had to be told.

13.Does looks matter?: looks in what aspect.

14.Have you ever misused a word and it
sounded absolutely stupid?: no. duh. me?!

15.Do you think there is a pot of gold at the
end of the rainbow?: no.

16.Do fish have feelings?: i guess.

17. Are you trendy?: i guess.

18.What was the last movie you watched in a
theater?: i can't remember.

19.How do you release anger?: pray.

20.Where are your second homes?: church? hahas. or my uncle's place. =D or bball courts. xP

21.What were your favorite toys as a child?: i can't rem.

22.. What lesson in school do you think is
totally useless?: nothing.

23.Have you ever been on radio or
television?: yeaps. i sat on them. okay that was lame.

24.Do u keep a journal?: err, sorta?

25.Do you use sarcasm a lot?: yeaps.

26.Have you ever been in a mosh pit?: eh?

27.What do you look for in a guy/girl?: organs, i guess.

28.What are your nicknames?: chris, xintai, etc...

29.Would you bungee: yeaps.

30.Do you un-tie your shoes when you take them off?: no. i'm lazy.

31.What are your worries right now?: like i'd say.

32.Do you believe in your astrological sign?: no.

33.Do you ever wear overalls?: no.

34.What's your favorite ice cream flavour?: frosted chocolate malt.

35.Where is your ultimate vacation destination?: switzerland.

36.What is your least favorite thing in the world?: people.

37.How many wisdom teeth do you have?: alot i guess, since i'm smart.

38.Are you in love with anyone: God.

39.How many people have a crush on you right now?: -.-;;.

40.Who do you miss most right now?: no one i guess. i'm evil

2004-11-04T02:55:00.000+08:00

&late night phonecalls;

eeps. ahhh. -dies-

okay. jeann msged me at 12:30am asking if i was still awake, cos she couldn't sleep and was gonna puke or whatever.

so i called.

and i just got off the line. 2hrs 30mins. eeps.

i think it's the latest ever phone call. maybe not. i'm not thinking.

i shall go sleep now.

i'll blog tomorrow. promise. eeps.

2004-11-02T20:48:00.000+08:00

&speechless;

read this excerpt from someone's blog below.

[[start]]

out with a guy one on one today

i feel great .
[8:03 PM]

[[end]]

i am so gonna kill myself. eeps. whoa. my conscience is in over drive. but technically, we didn't do anything wrong. so yeahh. ahhh. so mixed up. i must get rid of my conscience.

/to conscience: go die.

//to you reading this: how'd you kill your conscience?

ah ha! i know! i need counselling! riiiiiiiiight. -.-

2004-11-02T17:15:00.000+08:00

&let's go on strike!;

i <3 bowling.

mhmm. i want to go bowling. who wants to go? i think raffles town club charges cheaper on weekdays. about $1.50 per game. mhmm.

who can bowl at least decently well and wants to go out to bowl leave a tag. and make sure i know you. duhh.

hahas. shall bowl with andrew one day, hopefully jared too. we shall see who's more pro! lolz.

mhmm. lalala. i am bored. i WANT to be ENTERTAINED. wait. i DEMAND to be ENTERTAINED. so yeahh.

hmph. woe betide thee shalt thee fail to comply with the aforementioned statement.

2004-11-02T16:50:00.000+08:00

&seer and the seen;

hahas.

while i was at j8, i saw mitchell! whee. what sch is he in? how come he's sec1 and gets long pants? not fair. -whines- he was with 3 other guys. and he saw me first. eeps.

hahas. this is not good. i was with someone. so? that's not the point. hahas. oh nevermind!

walked around rather aimlessly. lalala. mhmm. it's good to get out of the house. i need to watch movies!

list of current movies to watch:
-cellular (for chris evans sake.)
-ladder 49 (if i'm bored. not too keen.)
-sharktale! (a must.)
-princess diaries ii (hahas. yeahh.)
-the manchurian candidate (get the dvd. it's m18, but seems nice.)
-shall we dance (if it's released in singapore.)
-taxi (if i'm bored.)
-the polar express (did i get it right? the cartoon christmas thing.)

anybody wants to recommend anymore? feel free to ask me out to watch any of these! =D hahas.

hmm. didn't know someone lived so near j8. and sis don't get weird ideas. you're already insane. hahas. don't read too much into this. i feel super bad. gahh. nevermind. i have no conscience. -stabs conscience to death- yay! -wipes brow and cleans katana-

2004-11-02T14:56:00.000+08:00

&dilemma;

i'm about to do sth that is wrong.

hahas. yeaps. i can't say.

but oh wells. it's not serious. i just might get someone into trouble.

okay. it's decided. i'm off to j8!

i bet you didn't get that! hahas. too bad. ((:

2004-11-02T11:37:00.000+08:00

&more quizzles;

i'm bored...

Message: 1. what's your display pic right now?
-someone's face. coughcough.

2. what's your nick rite now?
- -chris- late night scandal questions. [since when was sis so nice? -.-]

3. what's the story behind your nickname?
- hahas. self explanatory. refer to last night's posts.

4. do you read people's nicknames? and do
you ask them what's the meaning behind it?
- if i don't get them for some reason or the other, yeahh.

5. do you sometimes wander whats the
meaning of people's nicknames and ask
yourself
if it got something to do with yourself?
- yeaps.

6. do you put your status as away even if
youre not? (also busy or brb status)
- nope. at times la. hahas.

7. if other people is away or busy or brb,
would
you call them on msn?
- hmm, yeahh. charmaine. hahas.

8. how many hours in a day do you spend on
msn?
- alot.

9. how many groups did you have in your
msn?
- 18

10. what time usually you msn?
- anytime. ((:

*****

Message:
1.You are mostly known as?
chris, xintai.

2. What did u last do before filling this up?
the msn thing.

3. Are you taken/single?
single, err, yet taken? oh whateverrrr.

4. Do you love your significant other?
what significant other? lolz.

5. People who are always there when u're bored?
sis and her funny qns! hahas. hmm, and prob twin. and jared and drew,duhh.

6. What are you listening to?
let my words be few. - phillips, craig and dean

7. Tell me any part of the lyrics from what u're
listening to.
and i'll let my words be few, Jesus i am so in love with You.

8. who is ur last ex?
...-zip-

9. How is your relationship with your last ex?
self declared at war.

10. Do you hate him/her?
i think so. i hope so.

11. Prefer black or white?
both are fine.

12. What kind of music do you love?
christian, alternative christian rock. mhmm. and the occasional song heard at some shopping place.

13. The latest band/singer that u like?
U2/Coldplay. anything you teenyboppers don't listen to. i pride myself on being different. who likes britney or simple plan or linkin park should go shoot yourself. kthxbye.

14. Chad Michael Murray or Aaron Carter?
neither.

15. who r you thinking of right now?
sis, and how'd she reply. hahas. i'm not thinking of her in some funny way or what.

16. Most people think that you are?
weird.

17. How do you release anger?
kill them. (not literally.) or most speciality - dao them. ((: i'm very very very good at this.

18. The cutest male teacher in your school?
...i'm straight. and what school?

19. The cutest female teacher in your school?
what school? i don't go for older people eeps.

20. You used to have a HUGE crush on?
...go figure.

21. Do you want to get married?
duh. no! who wants to get married! kids are a liability! =/

22. Do you often receive letters by post?
no! i get airmail!

23. Unforgettable letters that u ever received?
sis corinna's. i keep all, duhh. but her's are the most treasured.

24. Did anyone give u love letter before?
i hope not. i don't think so.

25. On your last birthday, anyone gave you roses?
nope. oh wait. no. hahas.

26. On ur last birthday, anyone gave you teddy?
nope.

27. On ur last birthday, anyone gave you
chocolate?
yeapsssss!!!

28. What are thinking about now?
what do i do after this. and why isn't sis replying.

29. One thing that you hate about yourself?
everything.

*****

--ever--
1.Felt lyk being sumeone else?
yeaps.

2.Had a bf/gf?
yeaps.

3.Tried Smoking?
no

4.Tried eating a whole tub of ice cream in front of
da TV?
yeaps. did it.

5.Tried running from home?
yeahh.

6.Tried flying?
no. i'm a realist.

7. Joined a gang..?
clique? hahas. i'm exclusive. but not really, cliques aren't all that good.

8.slept for the whole dae without waking up..
never will be able to.

9. Believed in Love at first sight?
love is blind. get that into your heads!

10. Done one of there surveys?
like duh.

--Do u--

1. believe in Astrology?
nope.

2. want to get married?
...what do you think.

3. Have kids?
liability.

4. wanna die..?
wanna kill, not die.

5. wanna be a terrorist?
hahas. if you consider slashing people in medieval times an act of terrorism, then yes.

6. think the world is coming down and noone is
with u?
no

7. have a crush?
...what do you think?

8.wanna tell ur crush how u feel abt him/her?
no.

9.believe in God?
definitely.

10. wanna go to heaven?
yeaps..

2004-11-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

&lolz;

sis and i are still msging each other qns. weirdness. not my idea. it's her's. and she had asked me to sleep at 9pm. if i did, she'd be bored to death. see i'm so nice! =D hahas.

2004-11-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

&boredom;

hahas. sis is bored. she's msging me now with weird questions like what would i do if my parents decided to move to africa. eeps.

all this cos sis got sick of tv and isabel's using the comp. lolz. hahas. ahh. the luxury of having your own comp.

the family uses the XP comp. so i take the 98 one and claim it as my own! no one objects! so yeahh.

i want a laptop for next year. =D

2004-11-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

&sleepless in seattle;

YAY! i can sleep late! mel shall not prevent me from sleeping late cos...i have a temperature of 36.61 now!

hahas. cos she said if i have a fever i must sleep early, ie before 9?! and a fever for me, since my temp's usually below 36.5, is 37 degrees and above. hahas. yeahh.

lolz. i can sleep late! ((: okay not that late. yesterday was really late.

2004-11-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

&badminton;

eeps. long story. shan't bother.

straight to the game.

warmed up, 'nuff said.

eventually played 4 games straight against ilena, charmaine, dawn, and ilena's uber pro bro.

won the first 3 by a large margin. lost the last game 13-15. i was super tired k. hahas. but he's pro. he beat everyone i think! hahas. and i got the highest score against him! -ego- hahas. right.played mark soon after, won 15-11. lolz.

and and and. mel attempted to steal my phone k! and like, yeahh. she tried to make me forget it's with her. my poor phone. -patpat-. ((: mel do not bully my phone! ):

hahas. okay. that's all. ciaos.

2004-11-01T21:09:00.000+08:00

&quizzle;

Message: if u r a guy, tel us wat u wan ur gal to
b lik...
if u r a gal, den tel us wat u wan ur guy to b lik...

1. hair colour :
*~ a light shade of anything. not too flamboyant. (right colour plus 2 pts.)

2. eye colour :
*~ hahas. brown, black. doesn't matter MUCH, but still does. (refer to above.)

3. skin tone :
*~ fair, preferably. (1pt)

4. long or short hair :
*~ shoulder length? not too long, not too short. i think it's just nice, at the shoulder? -shrugs- (3 pts.)

5. piercings :
*~ ears only, if she has. if not, doesn't matter. (no pts for ear piercing. anywhere else -2 pts for each.) and not like over dno how many piercings on each ear, duh.

6. scars :
*~ eh, she must not cut herself. if she did, err, then she must snap out of it. gahhh. body mutilation is bad! (-3pts.)

7. big butt or little butt :
*~ =/ no comment. stupid qn.

8. straight :
*~ ...it's so obvious i'm not going to answer! oh the frustration. (-50 pts if you're not straight.)

9. outgoing or shy :
*~ hmm. it's called conservative or wild. i'd prefer conservative. anything really. just not too wild and crazy, that's mad and savage. hahas. ((: (5 points for being just nice. lolz. if there's someone like that.)

10. sarcastic or sincere :
*~ hmm. sincere duhh. more sincere than sarcastic. definitely. (fit the bill = 5 points.)

11. shld he/she be filial :
*~ yeaps. (1pt.)

12. shld he/she love his/her mom :
*~ yeaps. duhh. (1pt.)

13. shld he/she watch movies? :
*~ hahas. why not? just not some weird rated movie la. anything which doesn't push the boundaries, i don't see why not. (2pts.)

14. be sweet :
*~ mhmm. =D (3pts.)

15. be smart :
*~ it'd be a plus. hahas. just not too dense or whatnot. ((: (2pts.)

16. be funny :
*~ err, not really. it's nice - just don't be lame! (lame -5pts.)

17. smoker? :
*~ NO! (-10pts.)

18. drink :
*~ no alcoholic beverages. yeahh. they're evil. (-5pts if you drink.)

19. play with your hair :
*~ uhhuhh. riiiiiight. -.- err, i DON'T MIND. hahas. just not to the extent of making it messy, cos i'm neat. ((: (2pts.)

20. kiss on the first date :
*~ eww. despo. despo. eww. (-10 points.)

21. bring u gift? :
*~ why not? hahas. i want ermm, loads of stuff! jk,jk. (1 point.)

22. lay under the stars with u? :
*~ why not? just don't fall asleep on me. (figurative use. not literal.) (2 points!)

23. write poetry abt ya :
*~ fellow poet! (5 points!)

24. call u honey, sweetie or baby :
*~ err, i guess when the time's right? (wrong time -5pts.)

25. hang out wit u n ur frens :
*~ doesn't matter. just get along i guess? (1pt.)

26. hold ur hand :
*~ err, not so soon? (-3pts if it's despotic like.)

27. sing to u :
*~ if she can sing. if she can't...(sing well: 2pts. can't sing: -2pts)

28. play guitars or piano :
*~ doesn't matter. (1pt if you do.)

29. one last condition :
*~ don't bully me! okay la. occasionally i don't mind, not like -ahem ahem- (3pts.)

30. sumthin that u want to tell him/her :
*~ like, go wait until i'm ready. leave a no/tag if interested. gosh so despo. jk,jk. lolz. i'm talking nonsense. xP

how many points did YOU get? if you're not a girl...lolz. don't do this. i'm not gayyy.

2004-11-01T19:45:00.000+08:00

&quizzles;

wat if a girl kiss u?
err. die. hahas. and like wash my mouth with antisceptic or sth. it's like, ewwwwwwwww.

wat if a boy punch u?
...why would anyone punch me? err, pray for self-control and ATTEMPT to forgive him. otherwise, just thrash him. lolz.

wat if u r stuck on top of a tower?
climb down la! bobo.

wat if u found a frog in ur soup frm a 5 star
restaurant?
do they serve frog soup or whatnot? if i didn't order it, complain, unless it tastes nice. ((: then eat, then complain so i get another serving of the original soup that i ordered.

wat if a bull suddenly chase u?
stop moving. bulls run after moving things cos it agitates them. it doesn't have to do with the red cloth waved around by the matedor. (did i spell it right? who cares.)

wat if an orang utan hugged u at the zoo without u
realising it?
am i that stupid? err. like, say hi!

wat if u ur favourite pet became a monster?
hmm. i shall use it to take over the world! muahahaha!

wat if a man fart in front of ur face while u were
squattin'?
i don't squat in front of a guy's butt. who's that stupid.

wat if a bowling ball drop on ur head?
hmmm. i think i'd die.

*****

what if~~~~

1. a girl/guy kiss you?
*refer to above.

2. your best pal is dying?
* cry. and try to make his last days a happy time i guess? cos i know he'll be going to heaven already.

3, you can't get the person u love?
* as in? the love and get married kinda love? well, i guess God has somone better in mind then! ((:

4. you have no friend?
* ...i can't be that bad right? go make some! 3in1 friends! instant you know! -dies- that was lame.

5. a girl/guy hug you?
* depends. either i won't mind if i'm really close to that person, just as long as it isn't one of mel's tricks to be nice to me. =/ if i mind, then i'll freak, and possibly like, faint?

6. you dont get to enjoy all the things you have
now?
* i'd start whining. hmph.

7. you are a model?
* role model? cool. i don't mind. ((:

8. you have everything you want?
* thank God!

9. you are poor?
* earn cash?

10. you are a billionaire?
* invest. save. maybe fund some church missions thing. ((: i'm so nice..

11. others despise you?
* i don't care.

12. you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?
* won't happen for another 4-99 years. i'll tell you when i get one. a girlfriend, that is.

13. you don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend?
* err, depends la. right now? i don't want one. but if i'm 25 and i don't have one, hmm, i'd start panicking. if i'm 40, i'd think it's because i wanna remain single! whee~ i wanna remain single! yes. that's it! ((:

14. you are single all your life?
* no. that's so chloe-ish. hahas. but i'll still have the last LAUGH.

15. the world has no peace?
* pray that rapture comes and i go to heaven.

16. there's no school in this world?
* NO EDUCATION! MINDLESS PEOPLE! GOSH.

17. your best friends left you?
* get depressed. snap out of it. move on.

18. your best friend betray you?
* then kill them. hahas. okay. ermm, i hope not.

19. you dont drink for 3 days?
* die.

20. you dont eat for 3 days?
* fast! i'd pray!

21. you dont bath for 3 days?
* cannot! i'm a hygiene freak!

22. you dont wash up for 3 days?
* ewwwwwwwwww. nonononono!

23. you dont sleep for 3 days?
* i think i can. 18 hours out of 72. mhmm.

24. you sleep for 3 days?
* no way! i can't even sleep for more than 9 hours!

25. you are not who you are now?
* dno. trust God that it's better?

26. you are that someone whom you always
wanna be?
* be contented. ((:

27. the gorgeous girl/hunk in school?
* what school? =D

28. the person you love most is dying?
* let him/her know i love him/her, and spend time with him/her.

29. someone breaks your heart?
* use superglue to piece it back together again.

30. you broke someone's heart?
* call the repairman to fix it. hahas. no. duh. say sorry. i don't think i'd do it intentionally.

31. an angel ask you make 3 wishes, what are the
3?
* dno
* dno
* i hate these qns. stupid. it won't happen, so why dream? everything's perfect, cos God's at work.

32. that someone ask you out tonight?
* hahas. as if.

33. that someone call you now?
* say hi.

34. that someone confess his/her love to you?
* freak out. faint. tell her i'm not ready.

35. today is your last day?
* travel the world in 24hrs! and publish my autobiography about how good He has been.

36. if all the good things which you were
questioned came true?
* hahas. dno. be happy?.

2004-10-31T21:45:00.000+08:00

&quizzle;

when these songs are played they remind you of

(i haven't heard half of these songs. so it's a gut feeling on the title.)

*perfect by simple plan: no one? cos no one's perfect. lolz.

*i miss you by blink 182: not missing anyone now. yeaps.

*unwell by matchbox 20: me, yesterday. hahas. right

*accidentally in love by counting crows: yewjin. why? i dno. eeps. =/

* sexy naughty bitchy by tata young: nat. was her friendster name once. eeps.

*everytime by britney: no idea.

*pieces of me by ashlee simpson: someone who knows the fragility of stuff. cough. nevermind.

*if i ain't got you by alicia keys: leon.

*in the shadow by The Rasmus: yeow? eeps. weird names come to mind.

*welcome to my life by simple plan: rachel, cos she likes the band. i just remembered. or does she? who cares.

*never have a dream come true: mark yong, the sad sad person. he needs a better life.

*she will be loved by maroon 5: jean ho. was her blog music once or sth.

*if only love by savage garden: me! i like savage garden. eeps.

*dilemma by nelly: twin.

*can't fight the moonlight: sean. wolf things. hahas.

*numb by linkin park: justin. i hate lp. see the connection? =D

*vindicated by dashboard confessionals: leon! and loads of other people who are stupid;who put vindicated as part of their msn names w/o knowing what it means. stupidity.

*guilty by blue: ahem ahem. that person who hitomi detests so much.

*solitaire by clay claiken: lester

*this love by maroon 5: eh, some s'pore idol person, is it?

*don't say you love me by M2M: mel. her blog post full of song lyrics. it included this i think.

*reflection by christina aguilera: that disney show, what was it? ah. mulan or sth.

*breakaway by kelly clarkson: no idea.

*where is the love by BEP: eww. is that rap? sounds like 'maria' hahas. lolz. maria's a guy btw.

*god is a girl: blasphemy. go die.

*so yesterday by hillary duff: coughcough. dre. lolz.

*my boo by usher and alicia keys: hahas. me! i say 'boo'. =D

*say it isnt so by gareth gates: who likes gareth gates? who is he anyway?

i have just owned myself. shows how much about these weird people i know. it was a random quizzle. thank you for witnessing my public humiliation. why isn't there any decent songs by U2 or sth? -sigh-

2004-10-31T18:01:00.000+08:00

&crushes!;

*excerpt from convo with someone i shall not mention*

x says:
haha . -feels happy for you.
x says:
arghh , i realised one reason im so bored is cause i lack a crush in my life ! i mean seroiusly , i dont like anyone . except i just put up a HUGE POSTER of ronan keating on the door of my closet , but thats like -- stupid .
-chris- lollipops. (x [sick.] says:
AHAHA a crush does take up time!
x says:
so i dont get to feel the thrill of getting a msg from a crush ! /:
x says:
haha it DOES .
-chris- lollipops. (x [sick.] says:
you spend time thkg of the person.
-chris- lollipops. (x [sick.] says:
lolz.
-chris- lollipops. (x [sick.] says:
you spend time thkg abt how to reply msgs.
-chris- lollipops. (x [sick.] says:
hahas.
x says:
and it keeps you occupied .
x says:
so you dont think about yourself . yeah ! seriously .
-chris- lollipops. (x [sick.] says:
hmm true.
-chris- lollipops. (x [sick.] says:
lolz
x says:
in fact i MISS having a crush . yeahman .

riiiiight. this started cos i mentioned that someone was swooning over a msg from someone. right. this is insane. let's all get crushes! /=

2004-10-31T15:47:00.000+08:00

&quizzle;

::+about me+
name: isaachristian
nickname in sch: chris
nickname on msn: -chris- lollipops. (x [sick.]
on friendster: isaachristian
how many friends do you have on friendster: 72.
how many friends do you have on msn: 150.
born on: onesix[slash]zerofour[slash]onenineninezero
any siblings: 1 younger bro.

+mOre+
which websites do you go to immediately when online: friendster, soccernet, gmail, blogger, nba
how long do you spend online: 12< x < 18. i love inequalities.
do you study: yes.
what makes you study: nothing. intrinsic motivation.
do u sleep early: eeps. no. 12-6. hahas.
wads your pocket money amount: $50+++/week
do you like spending money: yes. ((: shopping

+favOurites+
Foods: okay fine. i eat anything nice. nice is subjective. lolz.
Drinks: anything nice. (:
Movies: the butterfly effects.
TV shows: punk'd. don't you just love ashton?
Singers: n/a
Bands: n/a
Songs: still.
Sports: bball..

+wat suCks+
Food: veggies
Drink: funny chinese herbal soup thingos. "it's medicinal"-leon. xP
Movie: overrated ones.
TV Show: REALITY TV IS RUBBISH.
Singer: britney
Band: LP
Songs: too many to list.

+piCk One+
Starve for 3 weeks/no hp?: don't know.
American idol/Singapore idol: neither. hate those shows. stupid.
Dick Lee/Simon Cowell: ken lim.
Micheal Jackson/Micheal Jordan: you can't spell michael. hahas. jordan.
Basketball/Soccer: bball.
do a piercing/tattoo: ...
dance on stage/sing on stage: i'm taking dance. booya. so sue me.
a partner with personality/looks: personality > looks.
a partner who can cook/wash up: both. lolz.

+What would you do+
If u found out you were going to die tml: like, get cured by a doc? stupid. next.
If you found out your loved one was going to die: get them cured la!
Your parents went against the relationship you are in: what r/s?!
If you failed your major exams: cry, and reflect.
If you found out your best friend cheated on you: i doubt it'd happen.
If you found out sugar is banned: panic and try to find out if chocs contain sugar.
If you found out this survey is going to end: find any other thing to keep myself occupied.

2004-10-31T13:18:00.000+08:00

&litsem;

woke up early yesterday for litsem.

was really good. didn't regret it. two playrights came down to give a talk and all. hahas. atomic jaya. we went to watch last year. and they showed bits of it, so we spoiled the fun of the rgs girls sitting in front of us be re-enacting the scenes. hahas. whee. was nice. informative. what else is there? self-explanatory.

then went to macs to meet jared and drew - both were late. hahas. jeann's got braces. thank goodness she isn't bleeding still. did i mention i get weak at the sight of blood? hahas. yeaps. i won't ever be a doctor. lolz. hahas. anws, bought drew his lunch. then watched jared, drew, and joan play cards.

hahas. i joined the sec1 outing to the botanic gardens after asking bro terence. he was like, "can can! join us!" lolz. hahas. ended up playing soccer with zachary's team, against josh isaac. we won 6-2 i think. scored the first goal. hahas. after that i couldn't play much cos i had 2-3 people trying to close me down. kindly note i really really am very bad at soccer. i just run with the ball, and i'm faster than you, so you can't tackle me. some may note i actually tried dribbling the ball into the goal yesterday, but to no avail. hahas. i actually ran like the whole length of the playing area, only to freak out cos i would've run into deslen. hahas. apparently chloe and joan played toward the end, but i guess guys don't pass to girls? hahas. not my team, i'm not guilty. anws, i do pass. i will like dribble pass loads of people, then set up some guy to score, cos i can't shoot! hahas. so i do pass, unless i feel really high and try to dribble past the whole opposition right to the goal. and apparently chloe keeps saying, "oh no!" whenever i get the ball. i'm not that good what. hahas.

at 2:30pm, i left. went to church to wash up, change, get ready for cell. HAHAHA. bro ag got owned. i did prepare gel, but he didn't tell me to. so i made him think of gel, so i didn't have to do it! lolz. slacker. sue me. hahas. it's called "bao ying"/retribution. hahas. leon's fav phrase. anws, felt sick during cell. puked.i went to the toilet, mel, i didn't puke at the meeting place. lolz felt terrible during service. went for lcell. couldn't take it. went to second floor to lie down for half an hour. sis hester came to find me. had a talk on why i should sleep early and esp not sleep 12-6 during the hols. granted. hahas. came back, they were still doing gel. singing songs and stuff. quite amusing. hahas. did i mention i was sucking a lollipop throughout lcell. cos the food stalls closed and i was hungry.

lcell ended at 9:10pm. had to wait until 9:30pm before going to macs for dinner. had to pass p dom his bday present. hahas. then left. ate. lcell guys are way outdated. hahas. nevermind. then i came back home.

guess who i saw? JARED KOH! HAHAHA. so cool! i was like, what are you doing here? apparently he came with chester, cos they live in chua chu kang. lolz. so jared and i went on msn terrorising people. okay fine. maybe not. just annoying people. hahas. planned to go out with drew on wed, then go prayer meeting. mhmm. sec2s better go. or else... and i shall ask drew and jared to stay over during december. hahas.

****

plans for this week:
-mon: badminton in the aft.
-wed: go out with drew and jared, prayer meet
-fri: meet up with sis eileen for dinner.

2004-10-29T14:45:00.000+08:00

&i just found there's no such thing as the real world;

...just a lie you got to rise above.

hahas. yay. last day of my secondary school life. so to all you students who are going to be in secondary school next year...-sticks out tongue- hahas. i'm so mean. okay okay. i may get killed for that. by err, that person would know who cos i'm not supposed to bully her or make her cry. eeps. and no, it's not my girlfriend cos i don't have a girlfriend. and i'm gonna laugh at you if you say that i was referring to a supposed girlfriend, cos the person i'm referring to is err, hahas nevermind. let's just laugh.

played bridge yet again in school. my dealing is pro! ha. whee. try bidding 6 of a set, and winning. that's uber pro. hahas. we played with uno cards, cos playing cards aren't allowed. hehh. i had 10 yellows, and two other colours, but of the highest value. hahas. pro pro pro. whee. okay nevermind. ladedar.

hmm. i won't miss people, cos i don't like my classmates much. immature bunch of sods. why do i have to get jonathan next year? i hate him to death. he's FAT. f-a-t FAT. and LAME. and STUPID. and ANNOYING. total turn off. i'm gonna start ranting. i've been with the retard since pri4. what did i do to deserve this? he got last in class yet again. loser. how did he get into ip?! arghh.

i'm so freaking pissed. lolz. you know why? cos the 5 freaking remaining students are going to transfer to acsi! and in sec4, they have the option of IB. which i really wanted to apply for. this is so screwed up. it may end up with them getting into a more illustrious ip programme then the smarter ones of us. arghhh. so unfair. i want to drop taip and go to acsi. gahhh. HOW CAN THEY DO THIS. wait. acsi? maybe not. i don't like the school. i like what they offer. hahas. i mean, if IB was offered to err, dunman high or sth, i'd go there. so yeahh. acsi. sighh. sighh. wait. they're not that smart. so i don't think they would be able to make it into IB right? right. -is content with himself-

i shall die of boredom today. whoopdeedoo. i have my ps2, comp, pda, handphone at my disposal. what game should i play first?! hahas. i'm that bored. i need to go out. ha.

****

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yay. monday there's badminton. right? don't cancel it, or i'll die. who's free on sunday? i need to do stuff! i'm dying of boredom. cell outing seems so far away.

did i mention i'm going to australia? yeaps. can't remember when. going to perth to meet up with pastors yat wan and angie. whee. can see timmy again. ha. i bet i'm still taller! lolz. hmm. australia has loads of food. i may come back fat. eeps. i don't wanna be fat! yay. youth camp coming soon. am supposed to do morning runs with the sec1 lcell. cool. haven't trained in ages. my 2.4km test was about...4 mths ago? hahas. yeaps. best prac time was 7:58min. dunno how i do that. i average around 8-9mins, during prac. i am horribly unfit now. i'm still recovering. -whines- i shall get back my fitness. did i mention i haven't balled in ages? sighh. i need physical activities/sports/whatever you call them. should i go to the gym during the hols? hmm. won't go that often. weights stunt growth. i don't wanna be short. mr lai works out, and he claims he shrunk 5cm. so yeaps. hahas.he's 150-ish cm. so yeahh. i think i really does! hahas.

am i rambling? oh dear. it's going to RAIN! ahhh rain! wait. i'm home so i can't get WET. hahahahahahas. anyways, i have an UMBRELLA! beat that! i bet my umbrella is cooler than your's. cos i just have to push buttons and it opens and closes automatically. hahas. whee.

oh man. got to go to acsi tmr. why?! litsem. or literature seminar. apparently seniors are presenting, so we've to go see. some big shot arts people are going to be there, so hopefully that makes it worthwhile. it starts at 8. so i have to wake up early. sighh. i want to sleep. it ends at 12, so i may go straight to church. hmm. who wants to meet for lunch? lolz. fine.

2004-10-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

&more quizzles;

1. i have a cell phone = yes
2. i named my cell phone = no, i'm not mel
3. i have a girlfriend/boyfriend = no i think
4. i love make-up = no
5. i love my natural eye color = yes
6. my hair is its natural color = no
7. i love going to the pool = yes
8. i love going to the beach = yes
9. i am a bookworm = yes
10. i like school = yes
11. i am going to college = yes
12. i am addicted to AIM = no
13. i watch amazing race = no.
14. i love ashton kutcher = YES
15. my room is yellow = no
16. i have sister = no
17. i have brother = yes
18. i wanna go to antartica = no
19. i love penguins = yes
20. my favorite color is pink = no (not really.)
21. i like skirts better than shorts = no
22. my favorite season is summer = no
23. i am in school = yes (as in i'm schooling, not in the school building.)
24. i am in the house = yes
25. i have my own car =
26. i have my learners permit = no
27. i love talking on the phone = yes
28. i like the name shadiq = no
29. i like ashlee simpson = no
30. i lOVE ashlee simpson = no
31. i play basketball = yes
32. i am a cheerleader = no
33. i like roses = yes
34. i get bored easily = yes
35. i love watching tv = no
36. i like nail polish = no
37. i love my life = yes
38. i like watching the simpsons = yes
39. i love Jesus Christ = yes
40. i like to eat = yes
41. i like to do cartwheels = no
42. i love my house = yes
43. i broke my arm/leg before = no
44. i have a computer = yes.
45. i have internet = yes.
46. i love to sleep = yes
47. i dont like this quiz = yes
48. i like this quiz = no
49. i only answered YES/NO and nothing else = yes
50. i think this quiz is over = yes

1. Your name spelled backwords?
naitsirhcaasi

2. Where were your parents born?
s'pore

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto?
pda

4. Last time you swam in a pool?
2 weeks ago.

5. Have you ever been in a school play?
yeaps. duhh.

6. How many kids do you want?
i currently have 12. ((: do you get it? lolz.

7. Type of music you dislike most?
rap/rock/metallica.

8. Do u like someone now?
yeahh

9. Do u think she/he likes u?
go figure

10. When was the last time u felt heart broken?
1-2 weeks ago? wasn't about relationships tho.

11. Ever prank call anybody?
yeaps

12. Do u have a best girl friend?
yeahh

13. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
both.

14. Farthest place you ever traveled?
hmm. not sure. i don't measure the difference in travelling distances.

15. Do you have a garden?
nope.

16. Do you really know all the words to your
national anthem?
yes.

17. Bath or Shower, morning or night?
bath, both.

18. Best movie you've seen in the past month?
i have to say they were all quite trashy. looking forward to shark tale. i like the cute vegetarian shark! (:

19. Favorite pizza topping?
ham, mushrooms, pepperoni.

20. Chips or popcorn?
chips

24. Orange Juice or apple juice?
apple juice

25. When and who was the last person u went out
on a date?
friends i guess.

26. Favorite type chocolate?
absolutely anything! chocs rule.

27. When was the last time kissed someone?
-zip-

28. When was the last time u held someone's
hands?
err. wait. this is scaryyyyyyy. -zip-

29. Have you ever won a trophy?
yeaps.

30. Are you a good cook?
i can cook? hahas.

32. Sprite or 7-up?
err, i don't mind both

33. Will you tell your crush that you like her?
depends.

36. Would you prefer being a millionaire or find
true love?
i'd rather have Jesus than silver or gold. nice song. hahas.

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?
no. cos i heard love was blind. =X

38. Can exs be friends?
yeahh.

39. Who was the last person you visited in a
hospital?
don't rem

40. What was the last sms u recieved?
err, jeann. about sth.

41. What was the name of your first pet?
don't rem.

42. What is in your room?
my room?! it's taken up by the columbian pastor staying over! -whines-

43. wheres 43?
is that a bus or sth?

44. Favorite thing to do before bedtime?
sms! lolz.

45. What is one thing/person you are grateful for
today?
everything.

1.still single?
___i think
2. ever fell in love with someone you've never
seen?
___no. that's just stupid.
3. ever had a crush?
___of course NOT. like, what's that? =X stupid qn.
4.are your friends also single?
___hmm, not all.
5. describe being single in two words.
___hahas. you should know. xP
6. choose: steady bf or gf, mu, fling?
___steady gf.
7. favorite colours:
___orange. crimson. black. pink. xP bimbo-ishhhh.
8. did it ever reach a point when you really
really wanted to have someone as your gf
then suddenly you switched your thoughts
to leaving him/her instead?
___something like that. don't remind me.
9. what do you do when you're sad?
___whine
10. what do you do when you're mad?
___mad is savage. i'm not mad!.
11. how does it feel seeing the person you
like with someone else?
___i'm not that protective or whatever...i think.
12. are you single and desperate?
___no. shoo. i don't want YOU.
13. are you single now because you love to
dump?
___i was never attached to my rubbish.
14. message to the other singles:
___good. remain like this for another 70 years. become monks and nuns. it's good for you!

2004-10-26T21:35:00.000+08:00

&teachers;

i shall amuse myself.

"they asked for my i/c! so embarressing." -mr jason lai, on watching 2046. cos he's 150-ish. so yeahh. hahas. he showed the person his driver's license instead. hahas.

"what are you looking at?" -mr lee. today during our class trip to nus chinese museum of sorts. i organised a prank thing, so the class gathered around a bench, on which i placed a tissue. the loser thought we were looking at an artifact, and came over and tried to peer in. lolz. pwned.

"i'm his biggest fan." -mrs jay. on tom welling and smallville. she's not that small. she's gigantuan. so pun intended.

****

students...

"you mean he's only 3 years old?!" -yeow boon. at the chi museum of sorts at nus. cos there was this portrait of some prominent chinese guy, and he was head of sth from 1965-1967. so it was like:

name, high ranking position, 1965-1967.

lolz. riiiight. stupid people.

2004-10-25T22:10:00.000+08:00

&quizzle;

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. isaachristian
2. shinta
3. xintai

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. i'm smarter than most
2. i'm faster than most
3. i'm better at bball than most.

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. i'm dao.
2. i'm cruel.
3. i still need to prioritise my life.

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. my failing of history.
2. my screwing up of end of year results.
3. why i'm still serving as a leader.

THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
1. liars.
2. people who gossip.
3. people who criticise others when they are worse than the person.

THREE THINGS YOU WANNA DO RIGHT NOW:
1. help twin.
2. attempt to give the right advice to someone on msn.
3. eat chocs.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. me growing heartless one day.
2. the world has no chocs.
3. mel.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. God.
2. MSN. ((:
3. my handphone!

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BRANDS:
1. U2
2. billabong
3. pilot - for all your stationery needs! ((: lolz.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITES SONGS @ THE MOMENT:
1. still
2. come again
3. forever

THREE person/or set of PEOPLE YOU SPEND THE MOST TIME WITH:
1. God.
2. jared/drew
3. other close church friends

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO WITHOUT:
1. God.
2. faith.
3. a purpose for living.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. eating chocs.
2. bballing.
3. chatting.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
1. laptop.
2. people who owe me friendster testimonials better write!
3. my pda to get repaired. i miss it.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. writer
2. fashion designer.
3. criminal mastermind aiding hitomi to take over the world. ((: hahas.

THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
1. japan!
2. western europe!
3. down under!

THREE THINGS/PEOPLE YOU WANT OUT OF YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW:
please forgive me!
1. depression
2. a certain person. -cough- 2 months more!
3. a certain "friend".

THREE PEOPLE YOU WOULD WANT LEFT IN YOUR LIFE IF YOU WERE TO LOSE EVERYONE ELSE:
1. God.
2. Dre + Joshie + Jas + Jeann
3. Drew + Jared + Twin
hahas. note. no sec2s. i wonder why.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. marry.
2. have kids..
3. do what God has planned for me to accomplish.

2004-10-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

&mel;

-chris- i feel like i'm falling, into the arms of a mighty God. it's not just a feeling, for i know that He is real. says:
ni shi tou.
[simply me*] grrrrrrr i don't like you YOU BULLY MY FRENZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!! says:
...
[simply me*] grrrrrrr i don't like you YOU BULLY MY FRENZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!! says:
i am a head?!

lolz! i means you rock la! -dies-

2004-10-24T22:28:00.000+08:00

&twins;

eeps. my twin sis bullies me. -whines- mel is evil! hmph. she manipulates the fact that i'm supposed to be nice to her. hahas. nevermind! and she has pictures of me k! ((:

jolyn! hahas. my scandalous twin. she's forgetful. i just told her it's past 10:30 and enquired when she was sleeping.

-chris- i feel like i'm falling, into the arms of a mighty God. it's not just a feeling, for i know that He is real. says:
dont u haf to slp soon?
jO-LyN-ll i'm in a whirl.whirl.whirl.jux like the shape of the lollipop tt goes round and round and round ll says:
actually
-chris- i feel like i'm falling, into the arms of a mighty God. it's not just a feeling, for i know that He is real. says:
it's past 1030 alrdy.
jO-LyN-ll i'm in a whirl.whirl.whirl.jux like the shape of the lollipop tt goes round and round and round ll says:
yeah
jO-LyN-ll i'm in a whirl.whirl.whirl.jux like the shape of the lollipop tt goes round and round and round ll says:
wad
-chris- i feel like i'm falling, into the arms of a mighty God. it's not just a feeling, for i know that He is real. says:
hahas.
jO-LyN-ll i'm in a whirl.whirl.whirl.jux like the shape of the lollipop tt goes round and round and round ll says:
so late?
-chris- i feel like i'm falling, into the arms of a mighty God. it's not just a feeling, for i know that He is real. says:
yeaps.
jO-LyN-ll i'm in a whirl.whirl.whirl.jux like the shape of the lollipop tt goes round and round and round ll says:
oops
jO-LyN-ll i'm in a whirl.whirl.whirl.jux like the shape of the lollipop tt goes round and round and round ll says:
okok
jO-LyN-ll i'm in a whirl.whirl.whirl.jux like the shape of the lollipop tt goes round and round and round ll says:
nite

hahas. weird ehs? oh! and this sat is officially twin exchange lollipop day! so i'm gonna buy a lollipop and exchange it with twin, cos she has this thing for lollipops now! hahas. ((:

i love my twins. =) wait. mel?! ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew ew.

i take that back! AHHHHHHHHHHHH. WHAT AM I SAYING?!

2004-10-24T10:51:00.000+08:00

&quizzle returns;

hahas. twin finally got msn again, that means i get more quizzles to do. =) thanks twin.

NOW] ---------------
+Happy Or Sad : happy i guess.
+Sleepy or Awake : awake.
+Hungry or Full : neither, though i haven't eaten..
+Dirty or Clean : clean.
+Single or Taken : single, but my heart's taken.
+Alone or with someone beside u : alone.
+Sick or healthy : sick i guess. pfft.

[WHAT] ---------------
+You last ate : the mcflurry at macs last night.
+You last drank : water.
+You wearing now : tshirt and shorts.
+Are you thinking of : people! i like generalisations. (:
+Are you wishing for : loads of stuff.
+Do you overuse : computer, hp, phone.
+Do you take for granted : alot of people..

[WHO] ---------------
+Do you miss the most : people. hahas. (:
+Do you love : God.
+Do you feel most happy with: jared and drew.
+Makes you laugh like a maniac : twin! she was imagining me playing soccer with the pda calculating where the ball would land. =/
+Makes u sleep : the doctor. he gives pills.
+Makes you cry : certain annoying people.
+Makes you angry : i daresay everyone. hahas.
+Enlightens you : God. dre. joshie.
+Ill-treats you : coughcough. -stabs the floor-
+Are your good friends : loads.

[WHEN] ---------------
+Is your birthday : 1604
+Is your loved one's birthday : loads of loved ones, like my family, relatives, friends. so many. hahas (:
+is the happiest day of your life : think everyday's nice.
+Did you last swear : last sat, when i was talking to joshie and cursing the heck out of someone.
+Did you last have a fight : fight? nahh. i tend to avoid them.
+Did you last cry : yesterday. why does this qn keep haunting me.

[HOW] ---------------
+Do you break off with someone : "let go off my hand." hahas. jk. well, straight in the face? "if you love me, you'll wait for me until i'm ready." test the person too. xP
+Do you live your life : to the fullest.
+Do you make friends : like, hi!
+Do you pass your time : msn, slp, sms, listen to music.
+Do you pass your exams : study? and pray.
+Do you find yourself : God, and others i guess.

[WHY] ---------------
+Do you normally get angry : hahas. not really. tho i can dao people for no reason. (:
+Do you cry : cos i'm hurt.
+Are you who you are: cos God created me this way.

1. Will u still love the person who once hurt u?
i love everyone, or at least try to.

2. Will u go out on a date with a person u know
who is already committed with someone??
date? did you know going out with someone is a date? yeahh. so why not? =/

3. Would u steal the person u love most from ur
friend??
YES! hahas. jk,jk. no.

4. What's the nicest thing you'll do for love??
to love and to be loved in return. what else is nicer? xP

5. What's the least thing you'll do for love??
flip coins to decide. hahas. ask chloe. lolz.

6. Will u give ur ex a second chance??
maybe, just not now.

7. What was the best thing you've done for the
person u love??
accept Him into my life..

8.If u get stuck on an elevator with your ex...
oh no. not at night right? don't want another scandal.

9. Will u give ur partner a big kiss in front of
many people?
what partner?! lolz.

10.If ur ex fooled u once,will u give another set
of trust on him/her??
what's with the ex?! i guess.

11. What will u do if u caught ur partner with
someone else inside her/his room or bed??
what partner? err, depends on what she's doing?

12. If you will be given a choice..Will u drink a
bottle of wine one-on-one with ur partner or with
ur crush only the two of u inside the room?
partner vs crush. no partner. hahas. anws, i don't mind wine, but i don't drink.

13. If you can only save one person (ex, crush,
friend, boy/girlfriend) on a crashing plane??
ahahas. i like asking twin this qn. i'm not telling you.

14. You r with u're partner on a party. You're ex
asked you to dance with her/him even for a
couple of minutes. Will you u dance with her/him
knowing ur partner is right there beside u?
err, i don't really wanna hurt my partner's feelings? so no.

15. Will u still give a present to ur ex on her/his
very special occasion??
birthday, christmas.

16. If u hear the word love. Who comes into ur
mind first?
God.

17. You won 2 tickets for a concert. Who will
you invite? Your partner, ur ex or ur crush??
can i have 3? hahas. scandalous. crush i guess?

18. Will u do a big favor for ur ex. Now that
you're already friends?
depends la. if it is scandalous, then no.

19. who r u thinking of right now??
him.

20. Who do you love most, ur ex, crush, or your
present and why?
gahh. no comment!

o1- i am not : x- a slasher -x
o2- i love : x- everyone. -x
o3- i hate: x- satan. -x
o4- i fear : x- God -x
o5- i hope : x- everything works out for those around me. -x
o6- i hear : x- music -x
o7- i regret : x- screwing up my exams.. -x
o8- i cried : x- cos of my results. -x
o9- i care : x- for most people around me. -x
1o- i always : x- breathe - x
11- i believe : x- in this crazy thing called love. -x
12- i feel alone : x- when the world has turned it's back on me. -x
13- i listen : x- to music. -x
14- i hide : x- alot of stuff. -x
15- i sing : x- when i feel like it. hahas. -x
16- i dance : x- when i feel like it.. -x
17- i write : x- poetry. -x
18- i play : x- basketball -x
19- i dun play : x- warcraft/starcraft/cs -x
2o- i miss : x- people. -x
21- i search: x- for answers from God. -x
22- i feel : x- i'm falling into the arms of a mighty God -x
23- i don't know : x- i don't care. jk,jk. -x
24- i talk : x- cos communication is essential in the development of the modern age. -x
25- i succeed : x- cos i can -x
26- i fail : x- to appreciate people around me. -x
27- i dream : x- due to my subconscious state. -x
28- i wonder : x- i don't wonder, sounds so stupid. i contemplate! -x
29- i want : x- to fall in love with You. -x
3o- i have : x- a perfectly decent life right now -x
32- i fell : x- for someone -x
33- i hurt : x- loads of people.. -x
34- i tell : x- the truth! hahas. yday's bluff! lolz. -x
35- i miss: x- people. -x
36- i love: x- God -x
37- i am: x- isaachristian/xintai -x
38- i wish: x- for stuff. - x

[ - p a s t - ]
# oo1 - when were you born?
[[ 160490 ]]

# oo2 - where were you born?
[[ s'pore ]]

# oo3 - what was your nursery teacher's
name?
[[ don't rem ]]

#oo4 - what was your first pets name and
what?
[[ don't rem. ]]

# oo5 - what was your worst accident?
[[ nothing so far i guess.. ]]

# oo6 - what was/were your favorite cartoon?
[[ does anime count? hahas. ]]

# oo7 - who was your first best friend?
[[ shane/zonghe ]]

# oo8 - when was the first time you ever went
on a plane?
[[ when i went to japan ]]

# oo9 - who was your first boyfriend/
girlfriend?
[[ -zip- ]]

# o1o - what was your favorite song when
you were in primary five?
[[ no idea. =/ ]]

# o11 - what was your favorite movie in
primary two?
[[ some disney one i guess. ]]

# o12 – when you were young.what do you
think you wanna be?
[[ big! ]]

# o13 - what used to be your favorite color?
[[ blue. ]]

# o14 - what was your favorite subject?
[[ WAS: math ]]

# o15 - did you ever wet your pants at sch?
[[ when it rained. i got drenched la. ]]

# o16 - did you ever get sent to the principal?
[[ yeaps. for good stuff tho! hahas. commendation! ]]

# o17 - did you ever steal anything?
[[ alot of non-physical things. ]]

# o18 - what was your worst fear?
[[ waking up one day in someone else's body. ]]

# o20 - did you ever suck your thumb?
[[ when young? i dunno. ]]

[ p r e s e n t - ]
# o21 - what time is it?
[[ 11:31am ]]

# o22 - what's the date?
[[ 24th oct ]]

# o23 - what grade are you in?
[[ sec 2 ]]

# o24 - who is your best friend?
[[ God ]]

# o25 - what is your favorite movie?
[[ the butterfly effects and maybe chocolat ]]

# o26 - what is your favorite song?
[[ come again. ]]

# o27 - do you have any pets?
[[ yeaps. ]]

# o28 - if so what are their names?
[[ fishies. the whole lot of them. ]]

# o29 - what is your favorite subject in
school?
[[ lit ]]

# o3o - what color of hair do you have?
[[ brownish black ]]

# o31 - what color of eyes do you have?
[[ blue. ]]

# o32 - do you still watch cartoons?
[[ does anime count? ]]

# o33 - what is your favorite tv show?
[[ hahas. what's on axn between 6-7pm every weekday? ]]

# o34 - do you go online often?
[[ yeaps. ]]

# o35 - what's your worst fear?
[[ didn't i already answer this? ]]

# o36 - what's your favorite color(s)?
[[ crimson, orange, black, and pink (if i feel bimbotic.) ]]

# o37 - what state do you live in?
[[ new york city. hahas. (: ]]

# 38 - do you have a bf/gf?
[[ no. ]]

# o39 - what's your favorite type of food?
[[ jap and italian. ]]

# o4o - do you drive?
[[ i want to. you know in columbia they can drive at 14?! ]]

[ f u t u r e - ]
# o41 - what do you want to be when you
grow up?
[[ writer/fashion designer. ]]

# o42 - do you want to go to university?
[[ yeaps. ]]

# o43 - do you want to get married?
[[ yeahh. unlike some people. coughcough. ]]

# o44 - if so at what age? if not why?
[[ 16! family planning! ]]

# o45 - do you want to have kids?
[[ yeahh. ]]

# o46 - if you do drive what kind of car do you
want?
[[ it's some brand with it's office in malaysia. they tailor make the car according to your size k! it's cool. ]]

# o47 - at what age do you think you'll live to be?
[[ very old, if i honour my parents. ]]

# o48 - where do you want to live when you're
25?
[[ NYC.]]

# o49 - what movie do you want to see next
saturday night?
[[ no idea. ]]

# o50 - are you happy?
[[ i guess. ]]

# o51 - what time do you think you will go to
bed when you're 70?
[[ no idea. ]]

# o52 - do you think you will have the same
friends as you do now?
[[ no. ]]

# o53 - do you think everyone will be jealous
of u?
[[ don't know. ]]

#o54 - do you want to be president of the
US?
[[ no. ]]

#o55 - do you want to be famous?
[[ depends. ]]

2004-10-22T16:50:00.000+08:00

&update;

geog: 72.5
mcq - 22/30
mapwork - 7.5/10
structured - 43.5/60
*2nd in class. why am i always second for so many things? i was topping the class in all 3 humanities. nevermind. whateverrr. i'll do better next year. grrr.

2004-10-21T14:54:00.000+08:00

&exams;

screwed. that's all i can say. i know i didn't really put my best in, cos i had other stuff to think about, but it's not an excuse.

eng: 65
-oral: 17.5/20
-compo: 44/60
-compre: 24/50
*worth mentioning: compo was o level standard, deemed excellent. hehh. essay on pop music and it's effects on teenagers. got 23/30. marked down one band for poor handwriting, so actually it's around 26-27/30. sighh. i was rushing! 2nd in class.

lit: 67
-paper 1: 30
-paper 2: 37
*2nd in class. lit was hard i guess, no As at all. only 2 B3s, rest all C5 and below. half the class failed. sighh. no A1 here. lost to top guy by 1 freaking mark.

chi: 60
-oral: 22/30 =X
-paper 1: 40/70
-paper 2: 45.5/80
-listening compre: 10/20
*4th in class. did surprisingly well. i had expected a C6. =/

math: 52
-paper 1: 37
-paper 2: 15
*screwed. paper 2 average for the class was 24. sighh. i need to improve on math. 15 is crap really. sighh. why are my results worse than before?!

science: 56.5
*relatively well done, considering the standard. sighh. but C5 isn't working for me.

art: 33
*don't count this. we only got the notes to study 1 week before exams and had no prior practice. art definitely pulled my marks up right?

history: 40
*what the... i got 86.7 for term 3. and i was topping the class throughout the year. no idea what happened. it's like, FAIL? i mean, at worse i expected a B3 from myself, but E8?! and strange thing is derrick, who didn't study and failed history year round got 70 and topped the class, while leon and i, the top 2, failed. leon got F9, which is ridiculous! sighhh. dunno la. 40. i wanna go jump.

geog: 51.5/70 so far.
-mcq: unknown, teacher didn't write for ME. everyone else knows their marks. and the geog teacher wasn't around.
-mapwork: 7.5/10. crap crap crap.
-structured: 44/60 best in class. sighh. mapwork pulled me down.

okay. if like, you guys don't see me on sat, it means i've jumped. i'm really really disgusted at my marks.

2004-10-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

&quizzle;

` - current mood - nervous. results tmr.
` - current music - silence by the window.
` - current taste - i wanna say bittercandy, for some strange reason.
` - current hair - ...yes i have hair. what does current hair mean?!
` - current dress - dressing you mean? tshirt, shorts. lolz. dress?!
` - current annoyance - science olympiad cos it's post exam PROJECT. urgh.
` - current smell - myself? i just had a bath, and i think i smell good. lolz. whatever!
` - current longing - holidays, with all the going outs, movie marathons, youth camp, and the like!
` - current game - n/a
` - current thing i ought to be doing - nothing.
` - current windows open - the living room one, kitchen one, the room ones are closed due to air conditioning. xP. blogger, friendster, msn messenger + chat windows.
` - current desktop picture - ahem ahem. (:
` - current favorite artist - no pref i guess.
` - current favourite group - group VIII. they're noble. xP. go research on chem if you don't get this.
` - current book - all time fav: the Bible.
` - current cd In stereo - don't have.
` - current video in VCR - ooh! today's episode of x, i was out, so i recorded!
` - current color of toenails - normal? what? black?! lolz.
` - current color of nail polish - ...i'm a guy.
` - current refreshment - none.
` - current worry - rgs exams. hahas. right charmaine? you ah!
` - current crush - -zips-
` - current favourite celebrity - ashton kutcher. eeps.
` - current wish - to stay awake and watch tv.
` - current hate - post exam PROJECTS!

2004-10-19T22:14:00.000+08:00

&quizzle;

no one online to chat with, so here goes.

I...
I see: a certain someone on my hp. =)
I need: medication for my nose. lolz.
I find: quizzes to do when bored.
I want: straight A1s for my EOYs, though i doubt it would happen.
I have: loads of time to kill.
I wish: i wasn't sick.
I love: God, and others. =)
I hate: nothing i guess. shouldn't hate.
I miss: for you to find out. eeps. charmaine! shhh!
I fear: failing my exams.
I feel: drowsy.
I hear: sniffing noses. guess who. lolz.
I smell: i karn smell! blocked nose!
I crave: chocs!
I search: for quizzes.
I wonder: who'll be going for prayer meet tmr, as there shld be more people cos exams ended.
I regret: falling sick.

When was the last time you ...
Smiled?: hahas. i guess when i msged a certain someone?
Laughed?: karn rem. haven't done so in a while.
Cried?: monday.
Bought something?: ice cream. today.
Danced?: not telling. lolz.
Were sarcastic?: today
Kissed someone?: karn rem.
Talked to an ex?: define ex. ex-what? ex-classmate? xP
Watched your favorite movie?: ble. been a long time.
Had a nightmare?: living or in my dreams?

A Last time for everything ...
Last book you read: the brethren, john grisham
Last movie you saw: white chicks
Last song you heard: My God
Last thing you had to drink: water
Last time you showered: couple of hours ago.
Last thing you ate: fish and chips for dinner.

Do You ...
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: the medicinal type
Have sex?: don't intend to until i get married.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: yeahh. so?
Live in the moment?: i don't live in a perpendicular distance from a force.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no.
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: not really.
Play an instrument?: oh. the KEYBOARD! lolz. i play it EVERYDAY! (:
Believe there is life on other planets?: dunno.
Remember your first love?: yeahh. God. (:
Still love him/her?: yeaps.
Read the newspaper?: yeaps.
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: JANAN TAN! lolz. jk,jk.
Believe in miracles?: yeaps.
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: i guess it'd be great. but i ain't gonna wait around forever AND remain single. xP
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: i guess.
Consider love a mistake?: at times.
Like the taste of alcohol?: err, honestly? no. haha.
Have a favorite candy?: chocs. any kind will do.
Believe in astrology?: nope.
Believe in magic?: define magic
Believe in God?: yeaps.
Pray?: yeahh.
Go to church?: yeahh
Have any secrets?: ermm. -blinks innocently-
Have any pets: fishies!
Do well in school?: i guess
Go to or plan to go to college?: yeaps. tj! hahas.
Have a major?: no.
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: "who are you?"
Wear hats?: rarely.
Have any piercings?: no
Have any tattoos?: no
Hate yourself?: at times.
Have an obsession?: yeahh. =)
Have a secret crush?: yeahh.
Do they know yet?: dunno. depends on jared's mouth.
Collect anything?: err. money!
Have a best friend?: err, dunno.
Wish on stars?: no.
Like your handwriting?: at times.
Have any bad habits?: err, ask jared. (:
Care about looks?: freaking outbreak. urghh. -whines- i need sleep i need sleep. i need better complexion but i want sports! lolz. wadeva!
Boy/girlfriend's looks?: hmm. don't have one? ideal looks? ask jared yet again. (:
Friends and other people?: err, what friends? shoo.
Believe in witches?: no
Believe in Satan?: err, negative kinda believe.
Believe in ghosts?: ...go figure.

2004-10-19T20:46:00.000+08:00

&poems;

love takes
love breaks
it's undeniable

love hurts
love destroys
it's unforgivable

love burns
love turns
it's unmistakable

love strong
love long
it's unbreakable

love you
love me
it's unforgetable

*****

Love Eternal

love was
seeing past those blue eyes
and that sweet smile
into who you were
and accepting you

love is
treasuring you
each and everyday
so that i'll let you know
i'll be here for you
no matter what

love will be
growing old with you
walking hand in hand
along the beaches
throwing starfishes into the sea

****

take my hand,
and let's go for a
midnight stroll down the
park. it's
quiet
there, and there's
no one around
at this time of the night.

step down
on the lush green grass.
see! the moon
shines so radiant
just like in your eyes;
the radiant shimmerings.

come
and seat with me,
here on the park bench.
lie your head on
my shoulder.
relax -
the night is young.

we were but sweet seventeen,
staying out late, spending
the night in each others' arms.
i held you tight,
afraid to lose you;
to ever let you go.

"dear," you say,
as your hand gently brushed
my cheek - the velvet touch
sent my nerves tingling.
"i love you,
i really do."

i gaze into your eyes, and
they tell me you do.
i fall into your arms;
the warmth of your embrace
in the coldness
of the dark cold night.

we kiss, and the
silhouette became one.
we spend the night
cuddled together,
only to awake to the painted sunrise
of the dawning of a new day.

****

right. i'm bored. hehh.

2004-10-19T17:41:00.000+08:00

&sick;

bahh. am sick. sighh. why is it whenever i worry or think too much about sth i fall sick?

met jas today for lunch to talk about some person. sighh. wells, i'll let someone else take over. not gonna kill myself cos of him. and she was quite shocked i fell sick cos i thought too much about stuff. hahas. oh wells. she was studying for her 'o's. was there the whole morn, while i was sleeping in school cos i had a headache. and there was no teacher in class. didn't get much sleep due to people trying to work on their trebuchets things for the science olympiad at nygh this sat. nygh k. =) lolz. ahh. hahas.

so they were like shouting and stuff. pfft. my poor ears. and i already have a flu and cough.

hahas. jas was weird. she was like, "if you get worse, my sis will kill me." cos i didn't wanna walk with my umbrella even though there was a drizzle. lolz. right.

i think i've just used two packs of tissue since i came back, err, 20 mins ago. ble. i wanna stay home tmr! hahas.

2004-10-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

&love;

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	erotic
Your hugs are...	gentle
Your eyes...	burn into my heart
Your touch is...	heart warming
Your smell is...	beautiful
Your smile is...	encouraging
Your love is...	eternal

Quiz created with MemeGen!

2004-10-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

&expectations;

hmm. did i mention i hate fair weathered friends?

sad to say, most people are like that. they enjoy your company when no one's around. but when there are others, they immediately forget your existance. oh wells. that's life: screwed.

to those who've been around for me when i needed you guys: thanks alot. really appreciate it. meant alot to me.

to those who haven't really cared about me: i don't blame you. it's you, and i don't wanna change you. yeaps.

i'm being accepting! whee. someone shoot me down before i fly too high into the sun, and my wax coated feathers catch the fire and burn.

2004-10-18T21:53:00.000+08:00

&random;

kenshin <3 kaoru.

kenshin <3 tomoe.

go figure! hahas. the answer is on sis' blog. xP

2004-10-18T16:29:00.000+08:00

&cast;

hahas. mel and i came up with this! it rocks k. somehow she ended up as my sis. and i'm supposed to be a protective brother. lolz

rachel = misao-chan
yeow = aoshi
xin tai = battousai
mel = hitomi (kenshin's twin sis.)
abel = saito
bryan = shishio
bro adrian = yahiko
danliu/wenguang = soujiro
jared = houji (the guy who bites off all his fingernails)
bernard = kenji
dawn = megumi
yew jin = sanosuke
charlotte = yumi
yong jin = yoshi (xin tai's green little pet dinosaur)
clio = tsubame
mark = okina
charmaine = ayame
yvonne = suzume
sarah = tae
janan = enishi
kai jie = akira

err. for the actual list go to mel's blog. i removed some names cos err, i might get killed. xP.

why on earth would yumi died for shishio? shishio is a retard. kenshin > shishio. lolz. lalala.

i must remember this: i must be good to mel. i must be good to mel.

hahas. =)

2004-10-18T15:48:00.000+08:00

&start;

hmm. rgs exams start today. yeahh.

i hope charmaine DID study and had enough revision to do well.

and i also hope chloe, in all her "laziness", also did study. hahas.

they'd better. charmaine's like, no time but wants to study. chloe - alot of free time, don't wanna study. xP

all the best to the rg girls.

cheer up ehs? hahas. as mentioned, it's quite meaningless. but i'll try. =)

2004-10-17T23:14:00.000+08:00

&hate being right;

lolz. okaaaaaaaaay.

i went to sakae at j8 for dinner today. on the way there, i didn't know why, but i had this feeling danielle would be there.

went there, didn't see her. so i thought i was being stupid. wanted to msg her, but realised "are you at sakae at j8 now" sounds stupid.

ends up...she was there. =/ and we didn't even know. just found out while chatting online. lolz. right

2004-10-17T22:08:00.000+08:00

&quizzles;

1) Using your Current Initials, choose a different name for yourself: idiosyncratic chess wizard. that's lame. heck.
2) Outside of your era, when would you want to be born and why? back in jap when samurais did exist and killed people.
3) If you ran a store, what would you sell/have? designer clothes.
4) What part in a movie would you love to play? main actor.
5) In your opinion, why do people suck? we invented straws.
6) If you had your own state, what would you put on your new quarter? hmm. my face.
7) What's the oldest article of clothing you own? karn rem.
8) What piece of furniture at home have you/your family replaced the most? err. dunno.
9) What instrument do you wish you could be more than great at? don't care.
10) Record, Tape or CD? none.
11) What do you think would be the best concert ever? hillsongs i guess.
12) What's the best part of your favorite movie? the suspense.
13) What do you think is the most over-rated candy ever? eye candy.
14) If you were writing out your will, who would you give your CD collection to? no one.
15) If you could only debate two topics the rest of your life, what would they be? everything or nothing.
16) Out of your friends, who would you say you are most jealous of? what friends?
17) Most jealous of... intellectually? jealousy isn't good.
18) What do you collect? money.
19) What is broken that you have, that you wish was fixed? pda.
20) What do you do when you're home sick? slp. use the comp.
21) Why does this survey rock? does it?
22) Story behind your username? names i guess?
23) Current Favorite Article of Clothing? no pref.
24) Line from the last thing you wrote to someone? "i don't care"
25) A famous person you have met? God.
26) Favorite way to waste time? msn.
27) Last thing you bought yourself? sushi

2004-10-17T17:39:00.000+08:00

&more rants;

[[VERY EXPLICIT CONTENT]]

mark yong's an arrogant freak who has the nerve to show his face in front of me.

let's see your debt.

well, what really pissed me off, i suppose, was calling me at 12 noon, asking me to go down to church with him cos his mum wants him to go. and i supposed to accompany him? i've got plans myself. so buzz off. i say 'no' and how does the arrogant jerk react?

"fine la. be like that."

damn you. am i f***ing obligated to go down to church to see your damn face? me going out with the freaking idiot on fri because the soab (abbre.) was bored was an act of kindness. what now? am i supposed to be at your damn beck and call?

i'm your cell leader and sp, not your servant. screw off and go and die. you're in such deep shit cos PSY wants to talk to you about joan. so yeahh. you deserve it. the arrogance you have ehs? you freaking think it's an obligation to spend time with you? no. i asked you to think of a gel for cell yesterday, you f***ing refused to cos you think it's my job? seriously, i feel like sticking a gun in your mouth, and not firing it, but shoving it down your throat to see you suffocate, and when you beg for mercy, i'll fire it.

ungrateful b******.

2004-10-17T14:32:00.000+08:00

&x;

hahas. mel and i were just doing a list of who would be each x character. xP.

hahas. it's amusing.

hahas. i like starting with 'hahas'.

hahas. i'll post the list when it's done. xP. i'm the pink guy! hahas. shinta. expected. hahas.

2004-10-17T11:41:00.000+08:00

&reflections;

sometimes God places you as a leader, and doesn't do anything. He may want you to grow on your own. -dre

sighh. i guess?

really gonna miss dre and josh next yr. i mean, seriously gonna miss them big time? they're going overseas to study.

dre was perhaps the only youth i really really really looked up to? cos of what he's been through, how he's handled it, and all. seriously, he's been the one who's always been there for me? and yes, what distinguishes him from other leaders is how he sees things? he's more practical than most, and explains the rationale behind stuff? sps just tell you, "you can't be in a relationship." "why?" "ministry's stand." what nonsense. dre takes time to share with you examples and stuff about why it isn't beneficial. and yeahh, he's been the one who's been spurring me on throughout the year. even when i've changed so much, he's never lost faith in me.

joshie. hehh. joshie's been the one i've been talking to when dre was busy with his stuff. and joshie gives really good advice i guess. and he's always there to hear you out when you need him. was just talking to him yesterday about stuff, and leadership. he knows more than he would seem to know. even about some leaders being crap and going clubbing. and that he found out, so yeahh.

really gonna miss them i guess? hope they'll be fine next year. i can't do anything about them leaving, but pray and wish them all the best.

2004-10-17T02:00:00.000+08:00

&rant;

okay. don't read this if you don't wanna.

i hate people that force stuff to happen or force people to do stuff.

worse, i hate people who use the subtlity of it.

that is, "you should be accountable to your leaders, and you should tell us whatever you know," kind of attitude, with an added "cell should be more transparent."

you people seriously think you're running a show here? i don't detect any sincerity in your pitiful efforts to get to know me. you end up only wanting to talk to me whenever i feel like you people do a crap job and feel bad about it, and only want to convince me to see things your way?

i hate this hypocrisy. i hate this. i hate whatever you do. i hate you. seriously buzz off. urghh.

then you have the nerve to say you don't wanna overburden us, and if we can't handle it, you're always there.

rubbish. utter rubbish. you were never there. where were you for the past 3 weeks. so you have activities, whatever. i don't care anymore. i'll turn unreasonable. i don't see reason because you first showed me you don't. people don't tell stuff cos they have their own reasons. what makes you think we have stuff to hide?

oh. so your student feels hurt in sch one day cos her grandmother passed away. you ask her, and she refuses to say. so is she hiding something? does it make her guilty? it does not freaking do so.

in case you didn't already realise, i've lost all respect for you. so if you think you're gonna keep me in your control and manipulate me, think again. you wonder why people are scared of you? they know you, and they see right through the fakeness of it all.

goodbye, you know who you are. some adult leader you turn out to be. why i talked to PSY today? i'm accounting to her from now on, so you can go focus on your next poor victim. i could slash you right now if i really were shinta.

oh. i'm disrespectful! oh. i really feel so sorry. i really do! all fellow sec2 sps reading this, i'm so sorry. yeahh. as if. i'm angsty, pissed and stuff. in teenage skaz: you suck. yeaps.

[i don't care, you don't even know i have a blog. but i wanna let people know how i feel about you. so there. not happy? you can't do a thing.]

2004-10-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

&quizzle;

Message:
[spell your name backwards] naitsirhcaasi

[the story behind your email address] stream of consciousness is a style of writing. seasons of mists is a book.

[where do you live?] singapore?

DESCRIBE YOUR...
[wallet] branded. ck. leather. -laughs-

[shoes] err. adidas/nike trainers?

[favourite shirt] no fav.

[piercing] don't have.

[hair] short. urgh.

[makeup] =/

[something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months] youth camp!

[something that you are deathly afraid of] messing up my exams.

[do you believe in love] yeaps.

[do you believe in forgiveness] yeaps.

[where are 3 places you wouldn't mind relocating to] japan, western europe, australia

[favorite foods?] italian, jap.

[is there something you wish you could understand better] yeaps.

[my father thinks i am] no idea.

[my mother thinks i am] no idea.

[my siblings think i am] no idea.

[best qualities] none. why don't you tell me? i find myself horrible.

[worst qualities] loads. just ask anyone.

[i get embarrassed when] i say stuff i shouldn't say? hahas.

[what makes me happy] God. seeing someone. hahas. yeaps. oh, good grades. playing bball. mhmm.

[what upsets me] urghh. almost everything else? hahas. jk,jk.

YES OR NO?
[you like to cook ] no.

[you have a secret you have not shared with anyone] yes.

LAST
[song you listened to] running after You.

[person you've called] clio.

[person that's called you] clio. =/

[person u sms] charlotte.

[TV show you've watched] chelsea vs man city.

[thing you were thinking about] AHHHHHH. dots. her? xP oh shut up.

[u think about suicide] long time ago. i'm over it and mentally safe now.

[others find you attractive] your eng is crappy. err. her? xP

[you drink] ice lemon tea.

[you like roller coasters] huhh? last i like roller coasters? =/

[you write in cursive or print] print.

[you carry a donor card] nope.

[you have a crush on somebody] yeahh. so?

[lied to someone] karn rem.

[ever been in a fist fight] eeps. no.

[ever been arrested] YEAHH! OF COURSE! =X

WHAT..
[shampoo do you use] body shop stuffos.

[what do you notice first in a guy/girl] eyes. i'm weird.

WHO..
[makes you laugh the most] hmm. jared! hahas!

[has a crush on you] no one. mhmm. hahas. i dno.

[last time you did something] type?

[last time you were totally free] hmm. today i guess?

[what's your favourite colour] crimson, orange, pink, black. xP sounds familiar. pink is cos i like using it to act bimbo.

[what are you planning to do tomorrow] call drew. slack arnd.

01. My name is : xin tai. =)

02. I may seem : cold, dao.

03. But I'm really : hot! lolz. jk,jk.

04. People who know me : will thk i'm allegic to choc.

05. If you knew me you'd think that I'm : a slasher! mhmm.

06. Sometimes I feel : high.

07. In the morning I : wake up.

08. I like to sleep : at night.

09. If I could be doing anything right now it would be : spending time with someone.

10. Money : is good for shopping?

11. One thing I wish I had is : nth. am contented with what i have now.

12. One thing I have that I wish I didn't have is: poor eyesight. -whines-

13. All you need is : God.

14. Why do u need it : Him? err. cos we just do. hahas.

15. If I had one wish it would be : to know Him more?

16. Love is : unconditional. hehh.

17. My body is : the temple of the Holy Spirit. mhmm.

18. If an angel flew into my window at night I would : say hi.

19. If a demon crashed into my window at night I would : ...

20. If I could see n kiss one person right now it would be : oh shut up. =)

21. Something I want but I don't really need is : hmm. no idea.

22. Something I really want but can never get: dunno.

23. I live for : God.

24. I dare you all to : wear t-shirts saying "mel rocks!"

25. I am afraid of : heights.

26. It makes me angry when : people are unreasonable.

27. It makes me happy when : she's around.

28. I daydream about : her.

29. I am attracted to : her.

30. I am unattracted to: bro adrian goh.

Name] xin tai
[Age] 14
[Gender] male
[School] vs
[Horoscope] dunno dont care.
[Location] s'pore

* c u r r e n t l y
[Current Date] 17 oct 2004
[Current Time] 12.36am
[Clothes] shirt shorts.
[Weather] night?!
[Hairdo] no idea.
[Footwear] none
[Mood] slpy.
[Talking To] smsing? charlotte.
[Sounds] keys of the keyboard.

* h o w m a n y
[Cups On Desk] nil
[Pets] loads of fishhh.
[Siblings] 1
[Crushes] NOT TELLING!
[Cousins] 27.
[Aunts] 12
[Uncles] 6

* h o w m a n y t i m e s / d a y d o y o u
[Change Clothes] depends
[Shower] depends
[Brush Your Teeth] 2.
[Wash Your Face] depends
[Say the Word "ok"] alot
[Yell at Your Siblings] err. don't do so.
[Slam Doors] rarely.

* h a b i t s / d o y o u
[Bite Your Nails] no
[Procrastinate] yeaps
[Stress] no
[Take out Issues On Others] at times
[Self Injure- (eg: cut, burn, pull hair)] no.
[Tend to Judge People] yeahh
[Any Other Habits?] yes.

* f o r a m i l l i o n b u c k s / w o u l d y o u
[Name Your Kid Dammit] ...no
[Shave Your head] no
[Wax Off Your Eyebrow] no
[Wax Old man's Back] no
[Sit In a Cage With 4 Hungry Wolves] no
[Eat A Snake] no
[Swim With The Jelly Fish] no

* a l m o s t o v e r
[Why Did You Take This Survey] bored?
[What's The Time Now ] 12.38am
[What Are You Doing After This] no idea.